Looking at you, smiling... I just wish you didn't choose her over me. I just wish you fight for me, for us... I just wish you make me see the world just like you do to her.
"Jennie!" someone shouted, I turn to look and saw my bestfriend Jisoo. When she's already in front of me, she looks at me with a frown. "what?" I asked.
"Lisa will never go back to you, even if you look at the two of them." She told me, I quickly slap her arms that made her act like it hurts too much. I get my bag, and look at Lisa again before we dash away.
"It's better if you two have a proper closure.. for you to finally let go of that feelings, Jen." Jisoo stated, and I nodded while we're walking to go home.
**
"Uhh.. thank you for coming." I told her. Lisa's wearing a hoodie, and just nods at me. I welcomed her into my home. We took a sit, facing each other.
"So, say what you want to say Jennie." It hurts me hearing those from her. She's not like this to me before. I look at her face, she looks tired but kinda okay.
"I was just curious... why did you just left me hanging? and then I tried to talk with you for months but you cut me off..." I started. She looks so cold but still smile.
"I fell out of love.. Jennie you've always been the good daughter.. always on top, always the role model, and I feel the pressure because I'm playing the role as your lover. I feel insecure, and suddenly just wanted to get away to you.. wanted to not talk with you. Sorry for leaving you with no explanation at all." she suddenly caress my cheeks and that's when I realize that she's wiping my tears.
"I never expected you to fell out of love.. Lisa you're the first one to love me and--" she cuts me off by putting a finger on my lips. She smiles genuinely and look at me with sincerity.
"I maybe the one who fell in love first, but you fell harder." then we just hug there, until there's no tears left in me.
That's when I realize how fool I am to believe her... I realized that when she died. She broke up with me, because she's scared to see me crying and sacrificing for her. If she only let me know that she's sick, maybe we enjoy those moments together.. maybe I still see her beautiful eyes before it closes... maybe I'm the last person she saw before she passed away.
"...and if I die, will it take me to you, my paradise?"
