Luna
“It doesn't matter how much I like him or how much it hurts me to hide that, but I can't do what he expects me to.”
“I know.”
“I've hurt him more than enough and if I do what I want, I'll hurt him even more,” I sigh. “He doesn't deserve that, he doesn't deserve any of this, Luke.”
“I know what you're saying, moons,” he continues to massage my head as I lay on the pillow on his lap. “But what is it that you're so afraid of?”
“Myself,” I say immediately. “I'm afraid of myself because I know at some point, I'll ruin everything. It always happens even if I want to or not.”
“Everything doesn't always happen as we think,” he stops massaging and I look up at him. “It may happen positively, you never know.”
“When has that ever happened to me,” we both chuckle at the same time. “See, I would be on cloud nine if everything just rolled up easily but if everything just kept on going south, It will be bad.”
I place my palms on the side of my head, giving it a hard press, and sit up straight. I turn to face him while I gather my hair for a bun and he speaks.
“I just think that you deserve someone which you call yours, completely.” I give him a closed-lip smile after I finished tying my hair. “I don't want my baby sister to feel like she can't rely on anyone.”
“I have you, don't I?” he rolls his eyes with a smile and I move away from his front and to his side, on my side of the bed area. “I have you, I have mama, I have Felix and Maeve.”
“Yeah, but-”
“Let's sleep,” I lean forward and grab the blanket. “This is a never-ending topic and I have classes tomorrow.”
“You're going back to the flat tomorrow?” I lay flat on the bed and look up at Lucas beside me. “I bet you miss it.”
“So much!” I smile and pull the blanket closer. “I'll take my bags with me in the morning, so I can go directly there after classes.”
“Okay, moons.” he smiles softly before pulling the blanket and laying down on the bed beside me. “Good night, have sweet dreams, don't worry, and I love you.”
“Good night and same to you too,” I nod, turning my face to him. “I love you too.”
“Now, come here,” he extends his arm on my pillow so I wordlessly agree and scoot closer, resting my head on his arm. “You're, safe, don't worry.”
“I know, thank you.”
***
The first week of December is officially here, and the auditions are just a few days- rather a few hours away. The audition for the lead singer will be on the fourth of December, just the day after tomorrow. Thinking about it makes my heart skip a beat in anxiousness.
But I know he will be fantastic.
Speaking of, it's been two whole days, and the rest of the hours from that day, have gone by since I've seen or even heard from Harry. I felt bad, I felt so bad but I don't regret it. I am sorry for how harshly I talked to him that day, but as I said before, I talked badly and it got worse when I didn't even regret it.
He pushed all my buttons that day, and I had to cross the line I had drawn for myself. I had to tell him about what really happened and the part of the reason why I act as I do. It was a big step for me, I try my best to not tell anyone about the reality of my life in such a short period. But it didn't happen that day. The efforts I took to stay calm after that dream in the garage are only known by me, I can't put in words how much of it I had to ignore just so I can greet him with a smile and not with a red face when he walks in.
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Fanfiction[COMPLETED] For Luna Rose, he was the breath of fresh air after being trapped underwater. He was her comfort in the lonely nights and the warmth of sunlight on a chilly morning. His voice was the antidote to all her problems. He was her star. For Ha...
