Kinn-Porsche & Mile-Apo

Realizing

"Why does every time that I'm stuck somewhere with someone, why is it always supposed to be with you?!" Chay shouted to Kim who sat on the corner, trying not to give him attention

Chay and Kim are currently on a camping trip, and Chay was so curious about this one small cottage in the middle of nowhere, pretty much away from everyone

Of course he left some tracks and some stuff to make sure he knows where the way back

But he didn't expect to see Kim inside when he shut the door

The door was locked and there's no window around and the only source of light that they're getting is from the moon through a crack of the ceiling

Chay frowned when he didn't get any reactions from Kim "bastard!" He kicked the floor and started banging the door

"Fuck! Is there someone hearing me?! Y'all better answer!" Chay shouted from the top of his lungs

Kim stared at his back and scoffed

"Are you that stupid? We're literally in the middle of nowhere while our classmates are at camp, why are you even here?" Kim asked annoyed

Chay scoffed again

"I'm here because I'm curious!"

"Cats die from curiosity. They get in danger once that curiosity kicked in" Kim replied with a bored tone and look up at the cracked ceiling where the light from the moon passes through

Porchay stared at Kim and groans "I don't need your lessons Mr. Know it all!" Chay said before slumping himself down, legs crossed and arms crossed over his chest

Kim laughed and looked at Chay in disbelief

"Why did we break up again?"

"Cause you're a cheater!" Chay spat

Kim sighs

"Well... Now that we're both stuck again, I think I should tell you more about what happened, because you didn't listen that day"

"That day, he told me that he needs help with our school assignment that's why I agreed and let him drag me at the music room"

Chay listened, even tho he don't want to

"He let me sit on the chair and suddenly sat on my lap and kissed me and that's pretty much a very bad timing because you came" Kim said

"It's not that I won't tell you if you didn't see that. If I'm being honest, I'd tell you after I push him away, run away from him and find you and explain every detail that happened but you let your toxic side took over and didn't listen"

"I was so scared of losing you, but still lose you just because you didn't listen. You didn't even try" He said then looked at Chay

"Chay, listening to other people's side won't hurt you even one bit. Listening to them makes you understand the situation more and makes your self more open minded" Kim spoke with soft calm voice even tho inside he wants to cry and be mad

Chay didn't speak

He can't

"I begged you didn't I? I begged you to stay, to listen, for you to try to understand. I did everything I can to get you back, Everything"

"Humiliated myself in front of everybody, cried in front of tons of people hugging you even tho you keep pushing me away"

"I almost commit suicide just because of that. You made a big ass impact on my life that all I wanted to do is to die" Kim said as tears started to fall

Chay can't look at Kim but still wanna say something

"I hate myself" Chay spoke

"I'm basically a walking red flag since I was a child yet you still wanna stay?" Chay asked

"I've never been a good person and not planning to be. That's why I chose not to listen, that's why I chose not to stay, cause I'm afraid I'd hurt you more for your sake-"

"BUT WHY AM I STILL HURTING IF YOU DID THAT FOR MY SAKE?!" Kim bursted out

"YOU THINK IT'D HELP ME AND YOU BY YOU LEAVING ME?! NO! IT WILL MAKE EVERYTHING WORSE!" Kim sobbed out

Chay was taken a back at how loud Kim was finally looked at Kim

Kim is on his knees, crying messily

"I'm so tired of pretending not to care for you. So tired of pretending to hate you, tired of fighting you just because you wanna show your friends that me and you are enemies" he sobbed out

Kim wiped his tears

"and tired of waiting for the day you will come back to my life not as a enemy, but a lover" Kim said quietly and sobbing at the same time

"I shouldn't have waited for years if I know that that's your reason why you don't want to listen" Kim cried out

"I'm done kneeling down just to beg you, I'm literally humiliating myself now" Kim said and chuckles "Is this what you want Chay? To see me vulnerable?" Kim asked and stood up and approach Chay

Chay slowly walk back as he stare at Kim's broken face

"This? Is this what you want?" He asked and suddenly punched himself

Chay's eyes widen

"This?!" Kim asked again and punched himself again

"N-no!" Chay held Kim's wrist

"Don't hurt yourself, please" Chay said softly and slowly lean in to lay his head on Kim's shoulder, it's like he's hugging him but his arms isn't around Kim but was holding Kim's wrist

"Don't hurt yourself anymore Kim... Please" Chay said softly

"L-let's fix everything now hm?" Chay spoke, hoping Kim would give him a chance

Kim scoffed and pushed Chay away and glared at him

"I'm done with you, I'm tired" he said before walking pass Chay and suddenly kicked the door open and walks away

Chay stared at Kim's back

"I... Fucked up" Chay mumbles to himself and slowly let himself fall on the floor and started to regret every shit he did to Kim

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