short stories

Helen

Hey guys, just wanted to share that this really is from God. I remember writing some parts of it and being like... "For real? Ain't no way this is from God and then the Holy Spirit would back it up with scripture or evidence of Him using those times when we were presented with the Gospel and chose to ignore it to bring it to life to us to save us. Isn't it crazy to just sit and realise how planned everything in your life was? The trials, the joy... All of it. When He says "I know the plans I have for your future..." Believe Him.

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A pit of emptiness sat in Helen's stomach. She doesn't get it. She is about to get married. This is supposed to be the happiest day of her life. But how come she feels so burdened as if she is making a mistake? Her life has not been perfect. This is supposed to be the one thing that changes that.

She met her well-done cake face reflection in the mirror. She had smooth olive-tanned skin with jet-black thick curls that reigned down her shoulders. She didn't want anything done to it. "Do you love Trevor?" The question suddenly popped up in her mind shocking her. How could her conscious bring that up when it knows he's the only good thing in her life?
Her mind began drifting back to her life as a kid. The small yellow house in Detroit's neighborhood. She remembers her parents arguing about the lack of money coming in. Although they kept the truth from her she saw it affecting everything in the home. She never dared ask anything of her parents knowing her home situation.

One day at the gas station while her mom was paying for groceries, she checked the candy prices. She grabbed one staring at it with longing. No one was paying attention, when her mom grabbed her hand and pulled her along towards the exit no one noticed the candy in her hand and she got away with it.

Guilt brought a lump in her throat as she came back to reality. If she had returned the candy, right after realising she was walking away without consequences. She wouldn't have become what she became. Parts of her skin that had ink on, began burning. She suddenly felt tears welling in her eyes, finally realising she has lost herself in the stealing, drug abuse, and selling her body.

She doesn't love Trevor. She doesn't even know what love is. How could she? She ran away from home at fourteen and never looked back. She associated herself with people she thought got her, but they didn't. It was a lie she fed herself to continue getting drugs from them. Trevor is just a ticket to the drugs and alcohol.

A memory suddenly hit her. When she was sixteen her friends and herself were chilling at a corner of William G. Milliken state park and Harbor across from where they were was a street preacher. They ignored him and she didn't even know what he was talking about, but now his words. She can hear it coming out of the memory into her dressing room. "Repent and come to Him. You can only find freedom in Jesus. Happiness in Jesus and anything else you desire will never quench your thirst. Only the living God will set you free."

More tears filled her eyes and she broke down sliding off her chair onto her knees on the ground. She bowed her head on the ground and cried out to God. "Oh God, how was I so blinded? Believing all of those were helping me, but were just pulling me farther from ever coming to you. I am sorry God. Forgive me. Take this all away from me. Renew me. Let me be born again into your kingdom. I know I don't deserve it, but you still died for a sinner like me upon the cross. I accept and receive your gift and turn away from my ways and I'm handing it in for yours. God reveal yourself to me. Please. Don't let me walk without You any longer. Amen."

Just as she said Amen, the door burst open and her friend walked in. She stood up and cleaned her face up. "Are you ready?" She nodded forcing a smile on her face.

As her friend held her hand and walked her down the aisle, she began feeling light-headed. Her eyes began shutting, she opened them wide trying to snap back, but her legs began giving out, and unwillingly her eyes shut and she fainted.