A Mitchsen FanFiction

Goosebumps

*after classes (Monday after the weekend)*
AUBREY'S POV:
I went into Chloe and mine flat and the first thing I saw was Chloe and Unicycle making out on the couch. "Guys, go to your own room and don't use the couch!" I complained. "Sorry Bree" Chloe said and dragged unicycle towards her bedroom. I just stood there and watched them go away. Why does everyone have a love-life? Why is everyone happy? Why is everyone having a good life? But why not me? Why do I have to have this life? And why do I have to be in love with someone who doesn't love me? I started crying and entered my bedroom. I sat on the floor in front of my bed while I was just crying until a thought popped up in my head. I grabbed under my bed, pulled out a little red box, opened it and put out a blade. I put it on my left wrist and pressed. Blood started to pour out. I cutted deep but it wasn't deep enough. Although I was still crying I started to sing. I didn't cared that my voice was breaking:

~ Hello little darling, could you please
Take me back when I'm too far
Out in the sea, darling
But do you know how far is too far?

I know that we will meet again
Till now I don't know where, I don't know when yet
But I am sure my pretty darling
We'll meet again

Hello little darling, could you please
Hold me tight when I'm alone
When I'm with you I feel safe
I feel safe and I feel warm

I know that we will meet again
Till now I don't know where, I don't know when yet
But I am sure my pretty darling
We'll meet again

'Cause I get goosebumps on my heart
I get that every time you laugh
Oh, I get goosebumps on my heart
Please let us never be apart

I know that we will meet again
Till now I don't know where, I don't know when yet
But I am sure my pretty darling
We'll meet again

I know that we will meet again
Till now I don't know where, I don't know when yet
But I am sure my pretty darling
We'll meet again

We'll meet again ~

With the last line I couldn't control my tears like I did while I was singing. I just thought on Beca. I just wanted her to be the one who would hold me tight and the one who would care about me. But she didn't. Well she did but only in a friendship way and not with love. I whispered: "I know that we will meet again, Beca" and put the blade to my wrist again to cut the artery but in this moment someone swung open the door swiftly.

BECA'S POV:
I heard Aubrey singing. It was so beautiful but her voice was breaking. What's wrong with her? And why is she singing about leaving? Why is she crying now? I just wanted to be there and comfort her. I just wanted her to feel better. I knocked several times but she never answered. I heard her saying: "I know that we will meet again, Beca. " That was enough for me to hear. I opened the door swiftly and the first thing I saw was blood-covered Aubrey sitting on the floor. "Aubrey! Don't do this! Please don't do this! Stop self-harming! Don't kill yourself! Please, Aubrey!" I said and also started crying. She just looked down and didn't answer. "Why have you done this, Bree? Why? If there is something that bothers you you could have told me. I'm there for you!" I said while I was looking for a towel to stop the bleeding. I finally found one and pressed it on her wrist. "Aubrey please talk to me!" I said. I hugged her tight and in that moment she started to sob. Tears were streaming down her face uncontrollably and the sobs let her whole body shake. "It's just that... I...my whole life is... that... I'm a mistake! That I'm unwanted! That no one likes me! I'm a jerk!" Is that really how she feels? I like her! No! I love her! "Aubrey, listen: you aren't a jerk. You aren't a mistake. And you know that Chloe and I like you. Please don't say things like that. You're a wonderful person. Please stop the self-doubt!" I said and we both just sat there crying for a while.

AUBREY'S POV:
We sat there silent for a while until I made the decision to tell her the truth. I inhaled deep and whispered: "Beca, there is something more I want to tell you. It's not only the self-doubt that let me make this. There's more. " "Okay. So tell me what it is. Please." She said with a smile. "I'm... I'm in love. I'm madly in love with someone who doesn't love me back. And that's killing me internal. " I think this is the best way to start. "Me too. But who is he?" She asked. "You too? It's a 'she' " I asked curious. "Well, the one I love is a she too." She said a bit shy. "Really? I didn't know you were into girls. " Nice. She is in love with someone other and it's a girl. Probably it's one of the Bellas. I felt the tears fall down my cheeks again. "So, what's her name?" She asked. "I can't say it. I'm sorry." I don't want her to know that I love her when she doesn't love me. "Okay. If you don't want to say the name yet then describe her. I'll describe the one I love too if you want. " She smiled at me. "Ok. But could you please start?" It hurts so much. I want her to love me and not someone else. "Well, the one I love has blonde and curly hair. She has green-grey eyes. Sometimes they're grey like the sky before a thunderstorm and sometimes they're green like an emerald. She is really skinny and has scars but that's a part of her and it's telling her story. She is taller than me but I think that's not difficult. She is a really good singer. Her voice sounds like an angel. Oh and she is beautiful. She's really beautiful. I think that's all. Now it's your turn. "She gave me an encouraging smile. Was she talking about me? Is she in love with me? I had to take my chance so I started describing: "Well, the one I love has dark brown hair and it's also curly. She has blue eyes. They're sometimes bright and sometimes dark. Bright like the sky and dark like the ocean. She is tiny but it's cute. She's a Dj and a very good singer. And she's really gorgeous. " I hope this wasn't too much but Beca only smiled at me and asked:
" So, what's the name of your crush?"
"Beca. And of yours?"
"Aubrey."

--- Hope you like this chapter and it wasn't too fast ✌🏻️ thanks for reading and special thanks to Belana47 for pre-reading 💗 and sorry for any mistakes 😁 the song I used is Goosebumps by Lena Meyer-Landrut (she's a German singer) ❤ ️PP2 is so awesome. I watched it 2 times. I love it so much. 😍🙈 ---