Yours.

Caught In The Middle. (11)

Aika's P.O.V

I came at almost 11:00 A.M of the night sa bahay. I didn't expect na makakauwi ako ng ganitong oras sa bahay kahit di naman gaanong naging matagal yung pag-uusap namin ni Y/N. I'm still out of my mind from what's happening lalo na 'tong issue namin ni Tricia.

It still messing me around lately lalo na nung pauwi na ako kaya ang una kong naging move kaagad is ang piliting makausap si Tricia sa kwarto.

When I get inside our house pansin kong walang tao dito sa baba or is it just Mama at the bathroom lang siguro kaya parang walang tao sa loob? Hindi ko na naman din syang gaanong inisip pa kaya umakyat na ako't tumuloy na sa kwarto namin ni Trish.

I tried to knock it up but... She didn't response to it.

I know, may galit pa'rin sya sa mga nangyari but I didn't mean it to be that harsh or anything... And alam kong mali naman ako dun.

I think I'm becoming too much so I want to apologize.

Narerealize ko naman na hindi ako perpektong Ate sa mga kapatid ko but all I want is they will be safe by me as the elder. And I know that it's getting a little bit out of hand lalo na kay Patty.

Sya ang pinakamamahal kong kapatid kaya ayaw kong makita ulit syang umiyak o masaktan.

But I didn't know na minsan ako na din pala mismo yung nakakagawa.

So I go upstairs through her room para kausapin s'ya but... Ilang katok na ang nakalipas eh wala pa'ring sumasagot or nagbubukas man lang.

"Tricia, open up the door, please." Pero wala akong narinig galing sakanya.

Not until someone taps my arm.

"Tigil na, Aika." Tears stream down through my cheeks when I heard it. It's from Mama and it hurts me a lot na nakikita na nya pa 'tong ganitong pangyayari sa'ming magkakapatid. "Hayaan mo muna si Tricia na makahinga kahit sandali."

"But I want to talk to Patty. I can't stand to this situation, Ma."

"Pati naman sya, Nak. Pati sya. Pero hindi nya muna kayang makipag-usap kaagad hangga't hindi talaga nagiging okay ang lahat para sainyo." That hurts me. Kasi ngayon lang talaga 'to nangyari sa amin ni Tricia and it really hurts me that I can't even stand to this. "Alam kong mabait at devoted kang Ate, Aiks. Pero hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon eh ikaw ang masusunod. May sariling pag-iisip na ang kapatid mo kaya siguro'y alam nya nanaman din ang tama at mali pati ang masama at ang mabuti."

"I just want to protect them."

"But don't lock them." Mariin nyang pagkakasabi sa'kin. I know I'm wrong and I apologize all of these to them tonight.

"I'm sorry, Ma. Nakikita nyo pa 'to ngayon." But she hugged me.

"Hayaan mo muna s'ya, Aika. Ako na muna ang bahala sakanya at sainyo." I just agreed until Jill offers na makitulog muna ako sa kwarto nya habang hindi pa kami okay ni Patty.

I still can't handle this pain but I need to.

"Dito ka muna sa kwarto ko, Ate Aiks." And I smirked to her while I'm wiping my tears away from my cheeks.

"Bihis lang ako sa closet na'tin okay? Wait for me." And she nodded and aheads through the room before me.

"Goodnight, Ma." And she smiled with a nod to me bago sya mag-goodnight sa'kin pabalik. I walked through the closet to change my clothes not until I felt somewhat heavy inside me...

As I let myself cry everything.

I felt so broken about the things that I've done to this moment. Ang sakit, ang sakit na hindi mo nakakausap yung taong gusto mong kausapin at yung taong gusto mong makasama.