m&ms 🫶🏻

4. arguments.

I walked over to the boy and the girl, they were standing alone, waiting for someone. I said "hey mason" and he looked over and smiled. his sister kicked him to make him shut up. he looked at my uniform. "so your sister? Is from my rival dance school?" I said while laughing a little. "yeah, so what?" Brooke said. "well brook, nice to meet you. good luck on the next competition. let's hope we don't beat you too bad next time" I said sarcastically and smiled before walking away and into my moms car. why was I so rude? I never get along with people from dance, because I'm so competitive, but I've been dancing for 9 years, I have my whole life to dance. every since I was old enough, dance has been the most important thing. my mom always told me to never lose, and try my best. and every time I would lose she would ground me, because she "pays too much money for me to throw it away" so anytime I don't feel good, I have to suck it up. or I will become my mothers failure. I don't want that. so I'm competitive and rude. But I feel bad, I want to be friends with mason, but I'm not sure I can. not after that.

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it's been a few days and me and mason have been arguing non stop, he says something in the gc and I fire back, or the opposite. it's stupid but he hates me, so Idc. he knows I don't care. I'm just trying to not look vulnerable. I can't look weak. I felt my phone ping. it was maddy.

mads :)
hey, can you be nice to mason?

Eliza :)
he's the one that's rude to me, so no.
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maddy left me on read. yay! I walk over to my closet. and pick out an outfit to wear. I'm gonna go to a party. my friends, from when I went to school, zoey and trinity, invited me to a party. so I'm going.
I find the perfect black shirt, and pair it with black jeans and I apply mascara, concealer and highlighter.
I put on my black converse and grab my bag. the party is at 7 and it's 6:30. so I walk downstairs and put the door. my mom is at work, so I'll be fine. I get into zoeys car and she presses on the gas. "we are gonna have so much fun" she says, trinity agrees with her and I just nod. I'm kinda scared but I need to get things out of my mind. so I'm going.

we walk into the party and trinity hands me a solo cup, "cmon let's get a drink, loosen up a bit" I bite my lip but then nod. what's the worst that could happen. they pour us drinks and I tilt my cup, into my mouth. and zoey pushes the cup up, pouring all the liquid into my mouth. I swallow and then cough. "that's strong" I say making a slight face. throughout the whole night, the girls pour me a few too many drinks. and then they leave me on a couch, upstairs. I upload some of the pictures I took to instagram.

instagram.

(Left: trinity, right: eliza)
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