Tattoos and Scars

Love .

|| So these peoples are the models for Britt and August.
August: fetus Michael Clifford bc they are some what twins
Britt: Courtney Dickerson ||

I never wanted to fall in love, because I always fall too hard or too easily. This time, I think I fell too easily. I've only known Ashton for almost a week, but every time i think of him my heart flutters and I get all giggly. I keep telling myself that I don't have feelings for him, but after the kiss? It was amazing, it felt real but I know it wasn't, it was only a dare and he obviously doesn't feel the same towards me.

Im in love with Ashton Irwin.

But he's not in love with me.

I quickly sped to the bathroom door and I can hear someone following me, they were calling out for my name telling me to wait, and I knew it was Ashton's voice. I locked the door and turned around. Did this just really happen? God, Im so embarrassed, I don't want to be near anyone because they'll just laugh.

"Michael?" Ashton calls out from the hall, I can hear his footsteps coming closer and finally to the door, he tried opening up the door seeing that it's locked. "Michael please open up, you shouldn't be embarrassed.. Are you?"

"Ash, I'm trying to go to the bathroom" I lied, standing in front of the sink hoping it will make him just go away.

Ashton sighed turning back to my room, where Britt and August still stood. I can hear them from in the bathroom, they were talking about me.

"Is he okay?" Britt asked, sighing.

I could only here mumbling after that, I look into the mirror, seeing myself. I don't like myself, I mean, I really don't like myself. I sometimes have these moments when I stare into the mirror hoping that something would magically change and I'll be pretty, but it never works, obviously.

I don't want to go back out there, I open the door just a bit to see whats going on. I can see Ashton and Britt sitting on the bed talking, I can barely hear them but I heard my name being said. What is she saying to him? I know its something personal since they look so deep with the conversation.

I step forward more and I can hear them more clearly,

"He's just, you know, depressed" I heard from Britt's mouth, "he's never experienced love" Never experienced love? Of course I have, just not the good kind of love..

I wanted to just walk in so she can shut up before she tells him something that she'll soon regret.

"Does Michael.. You know.. -" I knew what was coming, so before Ashton could finish i walk in the room and they both look up at me, Ashton standing up. He immediately brings me in a big hug, which took me by surprise, she must have told him lots of things, because this was so unexpected. I,of course, hug back but only with one arm since I wasn't into hugging at the moment.

Ashton pulls away slowly and Britt stands up also, "m'really sorry Michael.. About the dare" she said scratching the back of her head. I shook my head not wanting to talk about it and I also didn't really care,, sorta. I don't know why this was a huge deal for me, because I don't think I'm 'that' in love with him but I'm disgusting and no one would enjoy kissing me obviously.

Ashton sighed softly, "I'll uh see you later Mikey, my family probably want me home" he mumbled, and gave me a soft smile before walking out of my room and I eventually heard the front door close.

"You told him that I'm sad didn't you?" I immediately asked Britt when he left.

She only looked shocked from the unexpected question. Britt nodded slowly.

"He probably assumes that I self harm!" I yell, getting angry, no one should know, only they do and no one else ever will unless Britt or August ruin it for me by telling someone.

"I don't know why you're making a big de-"

"What if he thinks I'm crazy!" I interrupt her, not wanting to hear it. "Some people don't understand, and what if he's one of them?"

"Michael he deserves to kno-"

"No he doesn't!" I interrupt once again. But after that the words that came out of her mouth, shocked and confused me, it cant be real, she's only lying

"Michael he's in love with you!!"

But

How?