The Dark Isn't so Bad After All

Nightmares

⚠Trigger Warning⚠

*mentions of self-harm*

Midoriya Pov

I hated getting nightmares. Most times they're about me failing or my death. Tonight was the worst one yet.

I was holding hands with Tokoyami and we were walking on this path with little leaves falling around. Then a purple misty warp gate shows up. I automatically identify it as Kurogiri from the LOV. A hand reaches through and Tomura Shigiraki comes out behind the hand. Tokoyami turns around only to be grabbed by the neck by Shigiraki with his thumb and middle finger grabbing him. He threatens me and asks me the truth about All Might. Tokoyami shakes his head signaling me to not say anything. Shigiraki starts to count down slowly putting one finger till it's three then four till finally he put all five around Tokoyamis throat slowly disintegrating him. Laughing and mocking me as I scream and sob crying over Tokoyami's remains. Screaming at him to go and leave me alone. he leaves but as soon as he does a dark expanse swallows me. Soon I am nothing but a crying angry ball thrashing to the realization that I can't breathe. I try to gasp for even the smallest breath but invisible hands clamp over my throat even harder. Making it impossible to breathe. I struggle until I wake up. Jerking up looking around frantically only to feel a set of arms around my waist pulling me back so I can lie back down. My head softly lay on a pillow covered in my sweat. I turn it over and try to go back to sleep. Tokoyami's small breaths lull me to sleep.

                                                                                      Narrator

 Midoriya's nightmares became more frequent in the weeks to come. They varied in setting but they all ended the same, with Tokoyami's death. In different ways and times. This terrified Deku so much that he thought it would be best for him to stop being around Tokoyami. He isolated himself. No explanation to anyone. His life became routine. He skipped almost all of his meals. Most days eating only a small bowl of rice. He started to cut again. He never told anyone but he used to cut when he went to Aldera. Some weeks went by. He became exhausted and fatigued. Until it all came to a head one day during training. Aizawa and All Might supervise the class on the training grounds. 

                                                                            Tokoyami's POV

Midoriya hasn't spoken to me in weeks. The last time I spoke with him was when he had his nightmare in my room.  Was he uncomfortable with how I helped? I don't know. I keep analyzing that night trying to figure out what it was that made him upset. But, I was looking at Midoriya during training when he got sluggish. It was random, he was doing fine before just slower than normal. I guess Mr.Aizawa noticed too. He started walking over to Midoriya when he just fell. It all happened in slow motion. Midoriya put up a weak guard. His knees became unstable and then buckled. He fell, his eyes closing on the way down. I heard Aizawa Sensei swearing.

"Shit!"

Aizawa Sensei starts to run, he catches Midoriya before he hits the ground. My eyes go wide as I run over to see if Midoriya was okay. 

"He just fainted. Based on his eyebags and recent behaviors, I think it was exhaustion. Would you mind taking him to see Recovery Girl?"

I quickly shake my head grabbing him bridal style from our teacher. I start jogging to Recovery Girl's office. I knock on the door waiting for her to answer. I hear her open the door for me. She gets one look at Midoriya before sighing. 

"Another broken bone is it?"

"No ma'am."

That's when she started looking a bit concerned. She turns to me with this look on her face, maybe it was surprise or worry or even a mix of both. She quickly ushered me in. I lay Midoriya in an empty bed next to her desk. She pulls up next to him with some tools. Checking his heartbeat. She sighs in relief to hear normal breathing. She starts to unzip his training jacket so he can breathe easier. She slides it off his shoulders when she gasps. She looks at me. In a small voice, she tells me something.

"Go get Aizawa. He might want to see this."

I look confused but I listen. When I get back to the training gym I see Aizawa Sensei near the door in his sleeping bag. I walk over to him. He immediately sits up. 

"Aizawa Sensei?"

"Yes."

"Recovery Girl asked me to come to get you."

"Alright."

He unzipped his sleeping bag and began to walk to her office. We walked in silence and when we got to Recovery Girls office he asked me to stand outside the door. 

"Just don't leave. I have a feeling we're going to need you."

Like I would. I care too much to leave. Midoriya needs me right now so there is no way I'm leaving. I sat against the wall near the door. Drifting off for a couple of seconds here and there. I was woken up by a clattering and yelling. Recovery Girl immediately came outside to get me. She saw me and rushed me inside. Midoriya was having a meltdown. He was crying and screaming and thrashing. Mr.Aizawa was desperately trying to calm him down but it wasn't working. I moved quickly, getting into Midoriya's line of sight. I grabbed his hands and held them. He stopped thrashing. He was still sobbing but he calmed down from seeing me.  I pulled him into a hug, and he stopped altogether. Just for a moment. Then I felt his chest heave. He started to hiccup and he slowly started to cry. Then he started to sob. Holding onto me like I was the only thing holding him down, grounding him. I just held him, not knowing what to do. I slowly moved my hand to pet his hair. Eventually, his sobbing reduced to small hiccups. What happened for him to lash out like this?

A/N My goddddddddddddd it took forever for me to write. Writer's block is a bitch. SOOOOO what did ya think? It took me almost a month and a half to write this sorry about that. My updates will be sporadic I planned NOTHING when I started writing. Just going with the flow of my chapters. This was 1095 words along with the A/N so yea. Eat, sleep, drink some water, drive safely, and take off your binder if you've been wearing it all day. Love ya 😘