Fatima Story

Focus on me

They stare a each other for what felt like an eternity.

Zac: where do you want to go from here?

Fatima: idk Zac do you love me?

Zac: Ti you don't even have to ask that. I love you more than I love myself baby I jus made a mistake but I swear to you nothin like that will ever happen again.

Fatima: how can I be sure? You've promised that before you promised not to hurt me again but here lately that's all you've been doin. Tears start falling again

Zac: wiping her eyes I know baby and if I could take it all back I would but I can't so we have a decision to make, and whatever you decide I'm fine wit. If you decide it's too much then I'll understand. That won't change my feelings for you and I'll still be here for you and our baby girl.

Fatima: quiet.....idk what I want to do yet Zac. I know what I should do but I can't bring myself to give up on us we've fought through so much to get here.

Zac: we don't have to decide anything right now, in this moment I jus want to be wit you.

He started kissin her but she pushes him away.

Fatima: Zac stop sex can't fix this and in this moment I don't think anything can. You fuckin her isn't even the part that hurts it's you takin me to her to fix us. That's the most disrespectful thing anybody has ever done to me. You've done too much and we've only officially been together a lil over a year. I'm afraid to see what else you can put me through in 5 years. I've been good to you and forgave you more than I'd like to admit. This isn't me I'm not the type of bitch to sit around weak and let a nigga fuck my head up but that's what I've been lettin you do. I need time and I don't know if we'll ever get passed this. We have a baby otw and that's all we need to focus on. I hate that I'm even bringin her into this I usually don't regret decisions but I'll regret this 1 for the rest of my life.

Those words hurt Zac deep, he knew he hurt Fatima but to hear her say she regrets havin his child broke him in ways he never imagined.

Zac: ok Ti I hear ya. I'll get my stuff and go back to my place. We'll talk about our plans for the baby when you're up to it.

Fatima: Zac I didn't say you had to leave I need you here but strictly for the baby sake. I've been unhappy almost my whole pregnancy can you jus focus on makin these last 2 months stress free? I think I deserve that much.

Zac: you deserve more than that Ti but I can start there. I won't bring us up at all my main focus will be your happiness and us bringin a happy healthy baby girl in this world.

Fatima: thank you Zac.

Zac walks over and kisses her on the forehead "you're welcome baby girl, goodnight."

Zac goes to his room and breaks down silently.

Zac:

I don't know why I'm such a fuck up I finally got the women I been praying for my whole life and I've done nothin but hurt her since we've met. Now she's givin me the greatest gift ever and I can't even make sure she's happy during the hardest time of her life. There's no fixin this but I'll try my hardest to make sure these next few months are stress free, I owe her at least that.

Zac wakes up the next morning and cook Fatima breakfast in bed. He takes it to her.

Zac: Ti wake up and eat something.

Fatima: Zac I'm not in the mood to eat the last thing on my mind is food. I jus want to sleep until this baby comes.

Zac: Look I know I haven't made this pregnancy easy but you're not goin into a depression on the account of my actions. Now I promised these last few months would be stress free and happy and I mean that. Now get yo ass up and eat. I had somethin planned for you today but I know you're not up for it so I'll reschedule and we'll go look at baby stuff instead. Ok?

Fatima: gets up and stares at Zac....Ok.

Zac: ima go get dressed eat your food and get dressed then meet me downstairs.

Zac gets ready then waits downstairs for Fatima. She takes almost 2 hours to get ready she's movin slower these days. She has her natural hair up in a sloppy bun and a long yellow sundress. She decided to keep it simple since they would be out shopping all day.

Zac: you look good asf girl and you smell good too.

Fatima: laughing thank you Zac.

They get in the car.

Zac: so I know we have majority everything except clothes and shoes so I figured that's what we'll focus on today. And we have to pick out a name so we can get some stuff personalized.

Fatima: what do you want to name her?

Zac: I was leaving that up to you. I'm happy wit whatever you pick.

Fatima: I was thinking something wit our initials but you did that wit Karen baby so I want to do something meaningful. I know you love your hometown so I was thinkin we name her Brooklyn?

Zac: looked at her and smiled even when you're mad you still think of me. That name is perfect Ti. What about her middle name?

Fatima: I was thinking Marie or Nicole I want you to pick.

Zac: thinkin.....I like them both but let's go wit Marie

Fatima: looks down at her stomach and smiles hi little miss Brooklyn Marie Taylor we finally picked out a name for you baby girl. *the baby starts kickin* she grabbed Zac hand SHES KICKIN ZAC! Our baby is Kickin! She said wit excitement.

She's been so caught up in Zac and all his bullshit this is the first time she really stopped to acknowledge her pregnancy. She hasn't really talked to the baby or paid attention to her she jus went through the motions. But she decided last night that all of that was changing she vowed to put her baby first and everything else after that.

Zac: I feel her Zac said smiling. Baby...I mean Ti  your almost 7 months pregnant and this your first time feelin her kick?

Fatima: looked out the window no this is jus the first time I payed her any real attention.

Zac: I know that's because of me I'm sorry Ti. These last few months will be all about y'all I promise. Now are we having a baby shower?

Fatima: shit Zac I never thought about that. I don't even know where to start.

Zac: don't worry bout it I'll call Angela and we'll make it happen.

Fatima: grabbed his hand...thank you.

Zac: I told you Ti I got you no matter what good terms or bad and I meant that.