Reasons To Love You

Reason 4

Shikamaru's POV

You never believe the rumors about me. There's some truth to some of them but you only listen to me. You don't buy into them and you don't judge me for them. I was surprised at how calm you were that I had kept this hidden from you.

You told me you didn't care. That you were upset that someone outed me. I suppose being outed would bring more trauma but it's been fine. Our friendship didn't take a hit if anything it became stronger once you told me that you were the same. That you were gay.

It made me anxious, it brought a lot of your actions into perspective and I think you're aware of that as you've held off. You don't have an excuse anymore, you gave me your little secret to let me feel better. But I don't like you stopping yourself when you reach for my hand. Hold it I don't mind it, if anything I love your hand in mine.

Hug me tightly, I don't care. I love it when you do. You're so warm and you hold me like a jewel. Maybe I'm touched starved but you feed it so easily, naturally and I don't want to change that. So hug me, please hug me.

End of POV

It was awkward, Shikamaru had been trying to hold Naruto's hand but the blonde kept moving them. He was getting frustrated and yanked on the blonde's arm. "Stop it!" He yelled and they both stood on the sidewalk, the night covering them. There was no moon to highlight the expression on Naruto's face. "Why are you doing this?!"  

"Because you know!" Naruto yelled back. "You fucking know that I have feelings for you, feelings I can't change but I don't want to be separated from you. I can't do it anymore Shikamaru. I could before because you didn't know, I could talk it off but I can't now." 

"But I'm okay with it," Shikamaru gritted his teeth after Naruto pulled away. The blonde's eyes were blurring with tears and he started crying. 

"But I'm not. You don't feel the same, you won't ever feel the same. So I can't delude myself anymore by pretending we're together. Every hug, every outing they were all me being romantic I could play the fantasy in my head but I can't anymore," He sobbed and Shikamaru was faced with Naruto being openly vulnerable. The blonde was the level-headed one between them, he always acted aloof to everything but this was the first time he had broken his mask. He was letting Shikamaru have it all. 

Suddenly it clicked in Shikamaru's head. He felt the same. Why else would he be demanding hugs, hand holds, and for Naruto to never leave him behind? He reached up and cupped Naruto's cheeks, wiping his tears away as he pulled him down into a kiss. The blonde was surprised before he closed his eyes and returned the kiss. He wrapped his arms around Shikamaru's waist and pulled him closer. They broke apart shortly after, Shikamaru still holding his cheeks. "I love you, idiot," The Nara confessed. 

"Really?" Naruto sounded breathless as Shikamaru gave him so many kisses on the lips each one lasting longer than the last until they fell into a deeper one, their tongues falling into a dance. Shikamaru relished the moan that came from the blonde as he backed Naruto against the wall. 

"I love you Naruto," Shikamaru repeated. "Don't ever assume anything ever again when it comes to me." 

"I love you too Shika," Naruto was now crying happy tears as he kissed him again. They stayed locked like that at night. Shikamaru wanted to touch more of his lover now, he slipped his hand under Naruto's shirt, caressing his abs, moving up to his pectorals, and moaned when Naruto bucked his hips into his as he brushed his sensitive nipple. "Not in public," The blonde moaned as Shikamaru stroked his thigh. 

"Don't worry I wouldn't dare let people hear you moan when I touch you," Shikamaru suddenly had this burst of confidence as he reached up to cup Naruto's cheek. The blonde was so vulnerable now that his feelings were in the open. He towered over Shikamaru but the Nara could only see Naruto being so soft. 

"You're being different," Naruto chuckled. 

"Because our feelings are mutual," He murmured. "I think I've always loved you. I love you so much." 

"I love you too, I have for a long time," Naruto admitted quietly as he cupped Shikamaru's hand on his cheek. "Thank you."