kila, interrupted

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It was now about six months since I've been here, and it's felt like home. Maybe a fucked up one, but better than the one I had before. I got friends with a couple girls. Polly, Lisa, Georgina, Cynthia, and Janet. All a bunch of fucked up girls with even more fucked up backstories and diagnoses. I fit right in.

Me and Daisy started dating, it was weird and toxic relationship. But I grew to really love her over the months I've been here, so I didn't give a fuck about anything that tried to get us apart. She told me about all the things that happened to her one late nights I snuck into her room, and I did the same with her.

She told me why she kept the chickens, what her daddy has done to her. All about her past. And I never judged her, and she didn't with me. The girls and the nurses and staff all thought it was weird, that we were dating. It was private but everyone knew about it.

Lisa though, she knew more. She once caught us doing it in Daisy's room. We put a chair anytime we wanted alone time because of that.

I really loved Daisy, she was my everything and I was hers. She belonged to me as I belonged to her. I would die for her, I would do anything to make her happy. Anything.

Daisy told me she had some big news to tell me today. She seemed happy when she told me. She said she wanted to tell me in private, so I agreed to meet her in her room. Now I was walking to it, I couldn't wait to know.

I knocked on her door, and she quickly responded with. "Go away!"

"It's me, flower." I said on the door, with a hand on it. That was my nickname for her, it was basic but fit her. Since her name was a flower.

The door opened and the smiled puffy eyed girl opened the door, the girl of my dreams. My girl. "K. You're here." She said and pulled me in the to room and closed it, that same stench of chickens went under my nose, but I didn't care. I had gotten used to it.

I kissed her on the cheek and then she sat on the bed, holding the same teddy bear she had when I met her. "Sit." She said smiling playing with her hair and staring at me. I did what she asked and sat down on the foot of the bed, she didn't like it when people had there feet on the bed. I was no exception.

"My daddy, he got me an apartment. I leave in a month." I couldn't believe what I was hearing, she was leaving me. Of course, I wanted her to be happy but, she was leaving me, she said we would be together forever. "K?"

"What?" I said, so quick in response.

"What do you think?" She asked me, her face becoming a little disappointed at my reaction.

"I don't know, good for you." I just ruined her surprise, I'm such a dick. I got up and was about to leave before I felt a hand.

"Why are you leaving me?" Daisy said, with her head tilted and her expression a concerned and confused frown.

"Why are you leaving me!" I yelled back to her, snatching my hand away. She flinched, she flinched hard, I shouldn't have done that. But, it was too late.

The next thing I new her eyes blinked and tears rolled down her perfect cheeks. "K." She said, still holding eye contact with me, sniffling a little bit.

"Fuck you, Daisy. Have fun with your stupid apartment." I don't know why I said it, I just did. And I screamed it, I knew everyone heard.

"Why aren't you happy for me?" Daisy asked. I was, I just didn't want to be.

"How are you going to be happy if I'm not there?" I shouted again, I was yelling so much it just felt like regular talking. And before I knew it, I was crying, sobbing. "You're a liar, I was here for you, for all of this time, and you leave me?"

The door busted open, and Daisy flinched as I was forcefully carried out the room. "Fuck you, Daisy! Fuck you! I hate you!" And I could hear her sobbing from the room.

"Be quiet, Kila." I heard Valeria say, and I was but I couldn't stop crying. Why was she leaving me. Did she not love me anymore? Did I do something wrong. Maybe she told her dad she was scared I was forcing her or something. She did, didn't she.

I looked around eyes red and I seen a girl with short black hair looking at me. A new patient. Another victim of this terrible world.

Its honestly sad, I couldn't be taken to the special room because Lisa was in there taking it. Though that was fortunate. I was just taken to my room and told not to leave.

"Meds!" I heard after a couple of hours and I got out of my room. I needed some, they really helped, and I wasn't opposed to taking them.

"Kilamon Stowen!" I heard my name be called and walked up to the place, though Daisy was there I didn't care. Arguments like that always happened, thats what made it toxic.

I got my meds and took them and drunk my water, swallowing the pills down. I turned around and faced Daisy. I took the cigarette from her mouth and placed it on mine and took a dragging hit. I then took it out and blew it on her face, a whole lot of smoke going onto it.

She just stared into my eyes, like I was puzzle and she was trying to figure me out. "Can I come tonight?" I asked her. She would either ignore me and walk away or hold my hand and kiss me and say 'sure'. No in between.

And she did the latter. She grabbed my hand and placed it on her cheek. "I love you," she said and kissed me on my lips. I kissed back.

"Get a room you fags." I heard Janet say, and I rolled my eyes and we broke apart.

"Meet me now, I'll be there in a sec." Daisy said, and I nodded.

I walked quickly to the room, I was gonna fuck her. Consenting of course, but we needed this tonight. It would make me feel better about her leaving, and her feel better about me feeling better.

It would be the perfect make up sex, and we needed to clear our minds.

I then seen her pop up at the door. She came in and shut the door quickly. Good she was on the same page.

She quickly got on the bed and kissed me, and I kissed back, tilting our heads deepening the kiss. We needed each other, and this is how we got each other.

I could hear her soft moans as she broke apart from the kiss for breath breaks. We kissed for a while and I slowly starting playing at the end of her shirt.

"Can I?" I said, in between kisses.

"Yes, please."

And I took off her shirt.

Words couldn't describe how much I loved seeing her body. It was like heaven on earth.

It felt like I was floating, every lick, every moan, every ride, every whimper. It felt so good, and we both knew we couldn't argue over stupid things. I was happy for her, and I was going to find away I can see her as much as I could.

I loved Daisy. I really did love her.