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𝐊𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐇𝐎𝐁𝐈𝐀

Just like everyone else, I have a heart.
Yet I wish it had not beaten at all, letting go of the control it had over my body. The rapid, the slow, the steadiness of it's existence would cease.
My arms, my legs, my shaky hands, and my heaving chest shall share the same fate.
But just like others, still it beats.

Just like everyone else, I have a brain.
Yet I wish it hadn't function at all. If only it's cells had no skill of remembering tainted fragments of my life that overpowered the good. If only it would stop being a blur to the good things ahead, no longer focusing on the worst of things. If only it could think and remember what it wants, and not the things that haunt me, hurt me, affect me in ways I would've never imagined.
But just like everyone else, it thinks.

Just like everyone else, I have feelings.
Yet I wish a had not shed a single tear, curved into a single smile, nor have ever felt the boiling ranges of anger. Nothing to be confused about, complain about, excited about, sad about, just nothing at all.

Stop....
Breath in
And out..

If a heart still beats
If a brain still thinks
And a human still feels

Can I heal?
Can I learn to open up and not conceal?
Can I learn to love myself again?
Can I learn to love others again?
Can I hope for the best?
Can I find a reason to go on
Can I breathe.
In
And out.

"We can overcome those that chose to waver."
"Pain is temporary. Death is permanent, my love."
"We can learn to live despite the pain."