For the Sake of Love ✔

- Nine -

"You've never learnt, have you?" Mew said as soon as we buckled up.

"Um?"

"How many times have you've got tricked? You should've known better now that you're with me and all,"

"Do you... did you actually know Kao?"

"Yeah and even your thin white lies that day,"

Oh. So he knew it all along?
Is that the reason why he came to my 'rescue'?

"Th- thank you, though you don't have to,"

"Nah, don't mention it. Just never do it ever again, it's wearisome"

"'M sorry..."

"Next time you do it, I'll punish you that you'll cry," Mew said, despite his tone being cold, there's a playful smirk on his face.

"E- eh?"

"Kidding. Take a joke, will you?"

"You sound so serious, how could I know you were joking?" I started and he shrugged his shoulder, a weak chuckle leaving his lips. I sighed softly, not knowing from relief or from how dumb I was.

I thought it was my first love, but oh am I wrong? Clearly.
What kind of dumbass that believes it? Me, no one else definitely.
Who am I kidding? Ray was right. I'm nothing but a dumb-fuck.

Why am I even so desperate for love? I don't even know. Ugh, this is suck!

"You're this frustrated because of love, wasn't it?" Mew suddenly said. I turned my head to him and watched him with a raised eyebrow.

"You know, if you keep looking for 'love' that's like that, you're just lying to yourself," Mew said as he take a left turn.

"What do you mean?"

"You shouldn't feel pressured to find love. Love just happens, you can't rush it nor dawdle it. Sure, go on and try to find it, but don't push yourself too much, it's useless."

"What do you know about love? You don't even believe it,"

"I do believe in it, I'm just not desperate to look for it,"

"You don't even have to, you basically have the whole school on your feet, you just gotta pick. While me, I don't even know anymore,"

"Why do you want it so bad anyway? It's nothing but a transaction, a silly thing that carried too much stress," Mew said and my eyes widened at his statement, how could he?

"I... I don't know. I think- I think I just wanna know how it feels like." I slowly stammered out.

"Just go on with the flow, you'll find it eventually, whether sooner or later, it has its own time,"

Did he... did he say that to comfort me?

I feel my chess fluttering and a swarm of butterflies erupting in my stomach. Wait, are these the real butterflies people keep talking about? But, why him?

Maybe he's actually in front of you, or beside you or wherever it is that's close to you, but you just don't realise it.

No, it can't be.
Out of everyone, it has to be him?
The arrogant and self-centred prick called Mew Suppasit?
Oh God, you gotta be kidding me.

"Are you sick or something? Your face's red,"

"Uh? N- no, I'm fine. It's just a bit hot in here,"

"Gulf, the AC is on, what are you on about?"