For the Sake of Love ✔

- Seventeen -

"Wait, what?" I asked, clearly surprised at the sudden outburst,

"I... I know about your feeling toward Mew, but... but you shouldn't have chased over someone that keeps hurting you again and again. I don't want to see you getting hurt again, I never want to see tears falling off of your eyes again, I want to take care of you and love you as you deserves,"

"E- ehhh?"

"You're okay with that right, Mew?" Tul asked, giving Mew his puppy eyes.

"..."

"Mew, answer me! You're okay with that, aren't you?"

"Do as you wish," Mew casually said with that famous smirk of his. My jaws dropped and hit the floor and my eyes widen in disbelief.

"Y- you..." Tul stuttered out messily.

"I know it now. I- I understand that- that even though I'm gone, you would be just fine. You- you wouldn't miss me moreover feeling lost and miserable. Well, you know what Mew? I'm done. I'm so fucking done with your assholish behaviour and these whole things. Goodbye, Mew!" I yelled out with tears brimming in my eyes.

I ran outta the café as fast as my feet can carry me, wiping the tears off of my eyes harshly. I can't believe him. I can't believe Mew Suppasit.

Mew's POV

"You made him cry" I slowly said causing Tul to fist my shirt and lift me up slightly.

"It was you, you asshole! You made him cry! You know how he feels towards you and yet you said those words like it means nothing! Why did you even say them!?"

"Isn't that what you hope I'm gonna say?"

"What?" He looked at me completely dumbfounded, unconsciously letting my shirt go as well. I can't help but scoffed at him with a slight nod.

"Nice show, dude."

"W- what? You know about it?"

"I do, even since the beginning. Now you knew, so stop trying to help him. It's useless."

"What do you mean it's useless!?"

"I mean what I said,"

"You're mad, Mew! You're mad! He has tried everything in his power to make you like him back, he has done everything he could! How could you say that it was useless!?" I could tell he was mad, but really, there's no point in that.

"I know,"

"Then why don't you respond to it? Why don't you make things clear between the both of you? It's torturing him and you know that, you fucking know that!"

"Tul, I appreciate your help but I'm the one who decides when I'll fall for him."

Gulf's POV

I stopped near the bridge, leaning myself tiredly onto the railing. My face felt so sticky due to the tears that once poured down on it and I feel exhausted as fuck now, both mentally and physically.

Why do I have to fall for the asshole? Why can't I just fall for someone like Mild or maybe Tul? I'm sure things would be less fucked up if I fall for them instead.

There's no hope.

My heart was broken beyond repair and my chest felt tight as fuck it's like someone was trying to squeeze the living shit outta me.

I've never felt like this before. But now I knew why some people hate to love. It hurts and confusing as fuck (when you were rejected at least).

What did I do until I deserve this? I don't even know.

Surely it wasn't because of me lying because I know God wasn't that cruel. But then, what was it?

I don't understand Mew.
And I don't think I'll ever do.
If he could throw me away that easily, why did he have to say I was his?

It just doesn't make sense. His words and his acts can be so contradicting sometimes, the complete opposite of one another that it made my head want to explode.

I just want to understand him. I just want him to like me back. Is that too much to ask?

I felt some lights coming from afar, but I paid no mind to it. Sighing heavily again before I leaned my head onto the railing. This sucks.

I could hear the engine get closer and closer until it stopped right behind me. Probably police wondering why there is a crying boy out here at almost midnight.

"Are you trying to jump or something?" That voice. No, that can't be. He had thrown me away, why should he be here?

"Yo, can you hear me?" He said again. The sounds of the car's door being opened and closed were heard but I remained still.

"Let's go home. It's chilly outside, you could catch a cold," He casually said like he didn't just throw me away minutes ago. I stayed still until the damn asshole had the audacity to clear his throat and tapped his foot loudly.

I turned my body around, a sharp glare planted on my face.

"Go away"

"Let's go home, Gulf"

"Why do you care anyway? It's none of your business! Just fuck off, Mew! I'm done with you. Tell the whole school if you wish, I don't care,"

"Oh, c'mon..."

"Just leave me alone, Mew." It's not like you care anyway.

"Is that all you've got, Gulf? I thought your feeling was stronger than that,"

"Excuse me!?" the audacity!

"If you want my heart then take it. That's the only way you could have me,"

"What the fuck are you on about? I thought you were an asshole but never thought you would be a selfish prick too!" He just raise an eyebrow before extending his hand in front of me.

"C'mon,"

"No!"

"If you want it, then take it, don't ask others. Now, c'mon! It's hella chilly out here,"

I gave him another glare, tears pouring down my cheeks freely as the asshole gave me a reassuring nod.

"I don't understand you and probably never will, but if that's what you're asking for, fine! I'll keep loving you even though you're nothing but a selfish assholish bastard!" I angrily said as I grabbed the offered hand in mine.

He gently pulled me towards his body and held me in his embrace, engulfing me in his warmth and natural scent. I cried even louder in his chest, bawling my eyes out as I sobbed loudly. I grabbed his shirt in my first, while my other hand keeps punching his chest lightly.

"I hate you, I truly, truly do, hate you!"

"I know, I know,"

"I'll never understand you but I want to understand you! I don't know if you look at me like I was just your kitten or if you actually like me for me, I just wanna know but you're so fucking hard to understand and too much of an asshole to let down your pride, I hate you!"

"Yeah, yeah, whatever you wanna say. Is there anything else?"

"I don't choose to love you, why can't I just love someone else? I hate you, I truly do hate you and- and I hate your stupid brown eyes and boop-able nose and that fucking lips, I hate everything about you! I wanna stop but why does it hurts this bad? I hate you even more for that. You're such an asshole, a fucking bastard, b- but I... I fucking hate you!" I fell silent after that. The weight on my chest was suddenly gone and I feel like I could breathe again.

"Is that all?" He asked softly and I nodded my head tiredly.

"Alright,let's get you home then, I don't want my kitten to get sick after all," He kissed the top of my head and pulled me to his car. Opening the car's door for me, buckle me up, and closing the door for me.

He jogged to his side, get in, and flash me another nod.

What the fuck is he playing now?