𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 - Mason Thames

17 ", Lonliness"

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Masons pov:

Olivia hadn't come out of her room for a week. We've been knocking on her door to make sure she's at least alive but besides that we don't know how she's doing. We have only heard her speak a few times.

She isn't answering her phone or letting anyone in. Her door is locked and we can only unlock it from the inside or a key, which we ironically can't find. I sighed as I laid on my bed. It was currently 2am and I wasn't tired at all. Even though we all have been going to set besides Jacob for the whole week I'm not tired.

My mind is no where near calm enough to sleep. All I could think about was Olivia. I was getting extremely worried about her. I needed to speak to her and do she won't let me in I'll force myself. In this situation it has made me realize so much that I didn't before this.

I don't want any harm to come to her emotionally or physically. She is my bestfriend and maybe even my soulmate. I sighed once again before getting up. I went to her door and knocked. I didn't say anything I just waited. I didn't hear anything so she was probably asleep.

I decided I'd head to the kitchen and at least get her food. The meals we made we'd add little portions on a plate and set it in front of her door. Of course she didn't even take it. I was extremely worried about her. I had never felt like this before.

I took out the left over KD and placed it onto a plate, I didn't bother heating it up since I know she likes it cold. I headed to her room placing it in front of the door before knocking softly. I heard slow foot steps come off the bed and towards the door.

I started to smile a bit when the door creaked open. When it was open enough her head peeked out and immediately saw me her eyes widening. She opened it wider taking the plate ushering me to come in. I smiled widely as she let me in.

Olivia's pov:

I opened my door to see Mason and KD I wanted to my smile but I couldn't. Instead I grabbed the food and ushered him into my room. I took a seat on my bed and began to eat as he sat down besides me. He had that smile I loved on his face.

"I'm sorry." I said. He looked confused as to why I said it. "I just need time without people or without social media." I continued coming to a end. "That's Fine Oli we understand but you need to eat." He said with a worried tone, just like the tone everyone uses when they knock on my door.

"I know and I understand. We can give you as much time as you need darling." He said before getting up and walking out. He closed my door and left. I still sat there eating Mac and cheese with the tiniest smile I've had since my father died. It didn't last long until I felt lonely again.

I wanted to sob all over again after eating. It was sad eating KD by myself at night now. When dad would visit we would do that at night all the time. It would always end in us falling asleep on the counter with the dishes surrounding us, only to be found by my Brother or Mom in the morning.

I miss those mornings. I know I can't dwell on the past forever, I understand that. I just need to for a bit longer to get rid of the feeling that a part of me also died that day.

It may not have been big, or small. It was a medium size that died, it was nearly like it's taken over me. It was like a chunk of loneliness that doesn't fit in my body took over.

It's almost as if I'm being devoured hole but this god awful feeling.

I just want it to stop. Is it so much to ask for. I just want it all to stop all the feelings all together, all the loneliness, self pity, guilt, denial. All of the bullshit Greif comes with. I want it to stop. No I don't want it too, i need it too stop.

I took a deep breath before placing the dirty plate into my dresser and then climbing back into bed hoping that I could sleep off the feeling, even though I know I can't.

I just had to keep remembering that no matter what happens..

..'This feeling will go away.'

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HELLO!! Thank you for 4 k readers Ilya!! I'm sorry for barley posting I've been so sleep deprived bc of school I fall asleep at 11 pm and only wrote half a chapter.

also sorry I was at a sleepover with friends so I wasn't able to post!

But I'm sorry this is so short the Greif chapters for a but boring. Please remember to vote ml's <3