FINDING MR WRONG (B1)

Chapter 6

CHAPTER SIX

"Cade, just watching you with her when she touches your backside; I have to stand there and watch it happen! Do you seriously think that's fun for me? Do you think my watching you live happy-fucking-families is fun for me?"
While I asked this, I felt warm tears roll down my cheeks. Cade just sits there, looking at his hands. He can't even look at me - it's because he knows I'm right.
"Cade, I'm almost nineteen years old now, and I know you don't want to hear it, but I've fallen hard for you. I'm completely yours, but I can't."
His head suddenly snaps up. Wide eyes stare back at me, and I end up huffing out a laugh, feeling annoyed with him.
"Seriously, you didn't see that coming? Yeah, I'm in love with you. Only, you're too wrapped up in having your 'cushy life' to even see it."
Again, I attempt to leave the confines of his car, but he takes hold of my arm again. He shocks me when he plants his lips against my own. Unfortunately, I know what he's doing. He's doing what he always does when I ask him to leave her... he's trying to make me forget. Yet, I wish it was so simple. I wish he could make me forget, but I know she'll never go away!
"Please, Jo, don't leave. Please, just give me time to sort this. I'll give you what you want, but I need time. This will destroy them. If I tell them I'm leaving, it'll seriously hurt them. Please, just wait a little longer. I'll leave, just not right now, okay? Baby, just think about this. We'll hurt a fuck-load of people if we tell them what we've been up to. Our age gap alone is bound to hurt your parents. Hell, you've said it yourself; they'd get hurt knowing this. Jo, they'd disown you if they knew about us. Just give it time. I swear I'll leave her and tell her I'm not happy and I'll walk. Please, we need to do this the right way. Once I've ended things, then after a while, we'll make it known we're together. Please..."
Oh god, his eyes look so serious. He truly wants me to stay with him. Just hearing his plea made my chest pull tight. I feel his words, and I end up moving in. I sit on his lap, once again falling while we kiss.
"Please, don't make me wait long. I want you, Cade. I want you to myself. I hate sharing you. I love you so damn much. It's killing me. Knowing she has you and touching you, rips me apart. I never imagined my first love to be this way. Seriously, sharing with another is not my kind of 'relationship'. If you want me and you truly mean what you say... Baby, you need to stop sleeping with her. I know you're married, but my head and my heart can't take it. Please, this is killing me... please."
I'm practically begging him, pulling him close while I place kisses against his lips. While I'm doing this, he rips the thin material away from my heat before opening his jeans. He bucks his hips, silently telling me to let him feel me. So I do. I slink down on his hard length, and once we connect, he tells me.
"Baby, I won't touch her."
"Promise me, please. I need you to promise me, Cade. Please, tell me you're mine... just mine."
I'm moving up and down, giving him everything I have. This caused him to hiss through clenched teeth, telling me he promises.
"Fuck, Jo, I'm yours. I promise."
Hearing his words spurs me on. I ride him harder, making us feel completely lost in each other. Once again, we fall back into our pattern of "sneaking around." We stayed there for quite a while after our heated talk. Well, until she began calling, asking how long he'll be. Then eventually, he dropped me off around the corner from my home.
He said he'll pick me up on Friday. Said he'll book a hotel room where I work. We'll be together for the entire weekend. He said he'll tell her he's off out with the lads from his old regiment. He kept to his word and booked a room. Yet, it didn't end the way I would have liked. She called again. This time telling him how she needed him. Apparently her favourite aunt passed away. Naturally, he ran to her side. This meant he left me lying there naked, after making love to me. He ran to her side. I've never felt so alone in my life. I broke down. Yes, he's her husband, and it's his duty to be there. Only, that's not the worst part about it. It's how he didn't even say anything to me. He just pulled out of me, got dressed and left the room. So needless to say, I'm a wreck. I'm breaking in two, just knowing he'll never leave her. He had no intentions of ever leaving her. He said to wait, and I said I would, but for how long? How long do I have to stand by and watch him run to her every time she's upset? Yes, her aunt died, and I'm sorry for her loss. But seriously, he just left me. I should end this. I should walk away now before it gets any worse. Only, how can I pull away from someone I've completely fallen in love with? I can't imagine it'll be easy, and I can't imagine I won't come away with a few scars either. It's tearing me apart right now.
Eventually, I pulled myself out of bed. I had to leave before anybody saw me broken and bruised. While dressing, I suddenly felt dizzy. I get so queasy, I have to sit down.

"Holy shit, what the hell was that?"
When was the last time I had anything to eat? Last night, he ordered room service. I only ate a little. In fact, I've had no appetite for a few weeks now. If I'm honest, my nerves are shot to shit. This "sneaking around crap" is seriously messing with my health.
Once the dizziness subsides, I left the hotel. I made my way out through the back doors, so nobody sees me. Sadly, I had to walk home. It kinda felt like the walk of shame. I didn't mind the walk because it helped clear my head. Well, it might've cleared my head a little, but that "dizzy spell" returned. As I made it through my front door, it hit me, and just before my head hit the deck, the last thing I remember seeing was the radiator. I'm not sure what happened, but when I open my eyes again, I'm hit with a bright light. It's so bright, it actually stings the back of my eyes.
"Oh, thank the Lord, Jolie, honey."
I hear my mum, but she sounds upset. Oh God, what the hell is going on? I ask this too. Yet when I pry my eyes open, she tells me exactly what happened, and why.
"Jolie-Addison Harper, I honestly don't know what's got into you lately. Honestly, your father is furious. What on earth possessed you to get pregnant at your age? The parishioners will have a field day with this. We'll be the talk of the town. People will look at us, knowing our only child... Our eighteen-year-old child is pregnant."
Instant tears fill my eyes. I'm stunned by what she's telling me. Holy shit, this can't be real... can it? Oh God, is this why I've had no appetite? Is this the reason I collapsed?

"Well, I hope you know your father's talking about sending you away. He wants you to stay with your aunt Enid. You'll stay there until it's taken care of."
My eyes go wide. Shit! Is she saying what I think she's saying?
"What do you mean; until it's taken care of?"
"Well, you seriously can't have a baby, Jolie. You're just a child yourself, for heaven's sake. You cannot expect to take care of a screaming baby when you can't even take care of yourself. Now it's settled, you'll stay with your aunt Enid until it's done. Then you'll return home, and you will attend church, young lady! You will go to confession too. This is a sin. You're a child. You shouldn't be throwing yourself around like this. Heavens above, you're not even married. I thought I'd taught you better than this. I told you never to give yourself until you're married. I only pray nobody finds out about this mess. Jolie, I've never been more disappointed in all my life. Of course, you'll have to have to speak to your father. Though, you'll be lucky if he can look you in the eyes again."

Pain hits my chest after hearing her words. I'm trying to soak it all in. Seriously, she's telling me, they're ashamed of me and I have to abort my baby? Cade and my child. They want me to get rid of it like it is nothing? Once the words sink in, her eyes snap open. It's when I finally find my voice.
"Excuse me, what did you say?" She asked.
"You heard me. I said no. I'm not moving away, and I'm not aborting my baby! I said no!"
She splutters, total shock written all over her face.
"I beg your pardon, Jolie-Addison Harper! You will do as you're told, young lady! This is happening. Your father's already made all the arrangements. Believe me, you're set to leave as soon as you've checked out of here. Now my word is final! You'll get rid of that thing, and then we'll all get back to normal."
Holy shit! She's serious!
"I SAID NO! DAMN IT! I'm keeping this baby, whether you approve! My baby is staying! Now you listen to me for once in your crazy-overbearing life! I may be only eighteen years old, but this is my life! This is my baby, and I'm keeping it. You've got no say in what I do now! Honestly, I'm sick to the back teeth of you and him telling me what I can and cannot do! No more! I've had enough of it! Discussion over!"
I finish and turn over, facing away from her. As expected, she attempts to say more about it, but I tell her to leave. I also tell her I'll be back to collect my things.
"If you're set on this, then I'll just move out. I've nowhere to go, but I'm sure I'll find a place."
I'm hoping Cade will finally pull his shit together and find us a place of our own. Maybe the knowledge of my pregnancy will give him the push he needs to leave her. Naturally, I text him telling him we need to talk. However, he didn't respond like he normally would. He's with his wife, and I get that. Oh god, I need him though. I need him now, more than ever. I know I can't be selfish here, but this is big. If I don't speak to him soon, I'm screwed even more. I mean, I'm about to find myself on the streets. If I don't get this sorted soon, Lord knows what will happen to us.