No Time To Waste

Chapter 7

Jonathan P.O.V

I dropped the phone in look off into space. Stunned of what I just heard....I choke a little and went into a rage. I jumped of the couch and swung at the lamp. It went crashing to the ground, and I couldn't control myself. I fell on the stairs because my leg was to swollen. I sat up and thought to myself. "How can I get so attached to this girl that I barely even new. Only spoke to her a few times and it feels and seems like I known her my entire life. But the thought of her made me break down again. I can only think of  one thing to solve all of this. I got up and hopped on my leg towards my room. Every step I thought about my life......no football.....no more school because I got expelled.....no more love because she is gone now.....everything I hope for in life has been crushed now. As I turn the corner It came into view and my heart sank but I shook it off because I don't have nothing else to lose. I pick up my 12 gauge and started to pace in my room. Back and forth.....I'm trying to get my thoughts together. I stop and sit down and glance at my picture that's on the wall. Pointed the gun and shot it. The sound startled me and had my ears ringing. I relax and starting thinking again. Wondering what if I do it how will my family and friends react to it. I got up and went to get paper and a pen. I sat down and I started to write a letter.

Dear who ever read this,

   "I am very broken right now,the lowest I have ever been in my life. My life this past month have went to the bottom. My NFL career has gone down the drain. My love has died and I never really felt the pain of losing someone that connected. I can't get over it. My school has been not so well. I have nothing going for me anymore. Why should I keep going like this, all I'm doing is hurting my parents and myself. I can't get back on the right track, I know I can't. Believe me when I tell you this, why should I live if I have nothing worth living for. These are my last words I am gonna say. Momma and Daddy I love you, thank you for putting your effort into me because you no how far I can go but sometimes that rope that's holding me gets worn out and start to tear apart. It's on its last string. Can't take no more. Ima tie a string to my 12 gauge from it to the door and if you open it it will shoot me. I let you make that choice of my faith. If you don't wanna see me suffer anymore just open the door. If you don't open it in my eyes I think you wanna see me get worse and worse. So make a choice that's worth it."

I sat it on the mat outside the front door and closed it. I got my string and tied it up and sat down and waited.

Jonathan Father's P.O.V

RING RING....
Why would the school be calling me.
"Hello", I said

"Yes Mr. Howser I was calling you on the regards of your son. He has been expelled because of the fight he was in today. I am informing you that he isn't going to be coming for the rest of the year." The principal said.

" Oh really is that so. Well thank you for letting me know. I will handle this when I get home."

I am furious with this boy right now he cause all this trouble knowing he have a future in front of him. I'm happy I'm pulling up right now.

I get out the car already tired of working but I got to come home to some more stress. I walk up the steps and found this note. I read it and I'm more shocked then scared. My son is giving me an option to kill him or not and if I don't open this door he is blaming me for his sufferings. I don't know what to think I don't wanna see my son like this but he is in distress and his wants are needed to be met.

I put my hand on the door nob and I'm sitting hear thinking should I or should I not..............

-------Do you think he's going to do it or not? Give me your answers.