Depression

Trying to fit in.

So....
Trying to fit in. Everyone try to fit in with people, because they want happiness. However, they don't accept others for who they are, that what happened with me. I tried to get some friends but people like me apparently don't belong to any of the groups in my school. I'm "too pathetic for them" that what I've been hearing. back to the point, i wanted to change so I decided to stop being who I am and try to be a happy person (which was the biggest fault in my life) so I started to be a happy person I started to talk to people, I've been on the basket ball team and the most important thing I found the girl of my dreams (that what I thought)
But after some weeks, people knew I have asthma so they were ashamed to be with me. even my girlfriend
So I went back to the normal me because people kept on judging me and this time they were saying "kill yourself, you shouldn't be alive" I didn't do what they said this time. because I realized if I died the only person who would be happy is them, I wouldn't my family wouldn't my friends wouldn't. so I decided to be my self I got three best friends named Chloe , Michael and Dean they gave me a reason to smile.
Then one day I went to Michael's house my girlfriend was there...
She was cheating on me with him this whole time, so I stopped trusting people.
I thought everyone is the same, all try do is hurting, crushing people hearts.
So I stopped being the happy me I came back for who I was the "emo boy" as people used to call me.