The Surrogate BOOK 2

CHAPTER 48

AQUA:

3 days later:

"Sooo the perfect couple aint so perfect huh?? I mean, who the hell is suprised at what happned? I was expecting for him to mess up, the fact that it was revealed at a public event makes this even juicy. Aqua listen to me you are beautiful girl, sexy, intelligent, well spoken and a queen. The whole country is behind what ever decison you are going to make. Now I'm gonna give you and idea.  Stop dealing with bullshit, you are still young with a whole life ahead of you; if anything you should be living your best life and laughing.  My advice is Aqua,it's time to sign them papers girl and go live your life."

The tv switched off.

"Heyyy i was watching that."

"You been sitting on this couch and crying. Aqua i love you and it really pains me to see you hurting like this. I'm your best friend and my job is to be honest with you. I know you really love him and i know you are hurting right now, but sitting down on the couch is not going to fix this situation.  You gotta get out there and face it. I know you're scared, I'm scared for you too but I'll be by your side every step if the way no matter what. Whatever decision you make, I'll support it and whatever path you take, I'll take the journey with you."

"Celest why do i deserve to be treated this way?? Why must i be the one that get's the bitter ending?? Can't i have my happy ending, with someone who loves me even more than my circumstances and history?? Can't i have that??"

"Aqua, you can. It's all about the decision you make.  If you want to be respected and loved beyond this universe, you're gonna have to let go of what was and look forward to what is."

"But how?" I asked with a whole river of tears streaming down my face.

"Only you know that answer. Only you can listen to your heart. Only you know what you deserve. Only you."

With that she got up from the couch and went to the kitchen. After what happened,  i have been home in New York just sitting on the couch and sobbing, weeping and hurting. The only time i got up was to take a shower and make food.  Celest has been an amazing friend and somewhat therapist.

I got up from the couch and went to take a shower. I took and hour in the shower just thinking about what Celest said. Only i know what i want, only i know what I'm feeling, only i know my deepest desires and only i know the decision i have to take. Only me.

I got out dried myself, put on body lotion, my sweats and took a seat in front of the mirror to start my skincare routine.  I took a real good look at myself and i realised something. I was the same girl that became a mother to 2 beautiful children, i was the same girl who thought she needed a man to keep her happy, i was the same girl who conquered Paris Fashion week and i was the same girl who took the time to love myself and believe in myself.

Now what is stopping from standing up to Quinton? What is stopping me from making myself happy? What is stopping me from seeking what the world has to offer me once i let go of the old?

In that moment i realised. NOTHING CAN STOP ME.

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HEYYYY EVERYBODY!!!!!

I'M SORTY I'M VERY SORRU. TRUTH IS THAT I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH A LOT OF ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION, I TOOK BASICALLY THE WHOLE YEAR OFF AND TRIED TO FOCUS ON ME AND WELCOME NEW VIBRATION AND ENERGY IN MY LIFE AND JUST LET GO OF WHAT WAS NOT MAKING ME HAPPY AND KEEPING ME BOXED UP. WE ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE, DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO, SAY WHAT YOU WANT TO SAY, LIVE HOW YOU WANNA LIVE,MANIFEST YOUR DEEPEST DESIRES AND NEVER LIVE YOUR LIFE ACCORDING TO PEOPLE'S OPINION ON HOW AND WHAT YOU SHOULD BE. BE YOU!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU ALL

LOVE SARAH💜