A Midsommar to remember

mushrooms

TW (themes of drugs, mentions of overdose) 

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"Hey, Hey it's time to get up we're here." I open my eyes to find Pelle shaking me awake. Looking round I find that we are in some kind of field with lots of people laying on the grass in groups. 

"We have finally arrived. Come I want to introduce you to my family." Pelle says dragging me out of the car and into the field where we were greeted my many people who all looked more than happy to see us.

He starts introducing us to these people when we herd someone screaming yelling for Pelle. Looking over I see a man speaking in Swedish walking towards us with his arms open for a hug. Pelle embraces the man, and after ushers us forwards.

"Here, come on over, come on over. These is my great friends from America. Christian, Dani, Josh, Mark, and this is Terra she is the Norwegian friend I wrote yo about ." He says as he introduces us to this new person. I don't know why he put more into my intro then the others but I didn't really like the attention. "Meet my brother Ingemar, best friends sense we were babys actually." The said man nods in agreement. And then proceeds to repeat our names to see if he would get them right. "And say hello to my friends, this is Simon and Connie form London." 

He takes out a small baggy of mushrooms and tells us that he and his London friends had just taken them and hands them to Mark. I look over and see Dani looking uncomfortable and completely understand. Neither of us usually drink alcohol or do drugs and knowing the effects it has on the growing mind I really don't want to.

"Yeah guys you can take them I don't think I will, maybe later." Mark starts fussing again about how we can't take them at different times and how we need to experience this together, and how if we don't it will be like we are on different trips from them. In which I finally cave. I don't want to be the party pooper of the group.

Ingemar then steps in offering Dani and I a drinkable version of the mushroom which she agrees to. I don't want to do that so I take the eatable, at least that way I can monitor the the amount I'm taking in. You see when I was 17 my older sister and legal guardian overdosed, leaving me alone with no one. Thats partly the reason I went to America to try out that whole new life thing people talk about.

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We are now all sitting under a tree doing nothing. 

Mark is yelling about how the sky shouldn't still be blue if it's nine o'clock and how he doesn't feel fine. 

I don't know how to put into words how I feel, but you know that stare that you go into where everything around you just freezes and you feel like you can't pull away from yet you don't really want to because it feels so good. Thats kinda how I feel.

All of the sudden Dani shoots up and walks off in distress. I begin to stand up as well wanting to go check on her but Pelle holds onto my arm and guides me back down to where I'm sitting next to him. As he starts talking about how you can feel the earth breathing around us.

I lay down and stare at the sky. Looking over I meet eyes with Pelle and we just look into each others eyes. He looks at me with a sense of hope and longing making me feel that feeling that gut feeling of uneasiness again. Like something is waiting to happen.