Him|J.G|

chapter 6

|3rd person pov|

Ashely and Nate have been fighting a lot he hit her the other night he keeps hitting her she loves him so much but doesnt know what to do he loves her so much and she loves him so much too. But when it comes to the point where she cant take the pain physically and mentally she isnt the same its almost like she's broken but she cant be she shakes it off she is one of the most wanted criminals around this shithole town she think

|Ashley|

I lay in bed listening to Panic! At The Disco- the gospel

"IF YOU LOVE ME LET ME GOOOOOO" i screamed crying

"the fear of falling apart" i whisper i put this song on repeat Nate hasnt been home for days i keep getting hurt i hear footsteps up the stairs i just put my head in the pillow and scream

"Hey shh. its me Jack babygirl" he said i jumped in his arms crying into his chest

"im alone now jack im scared and alone" i cried

"shh you're never gonna be alone, okay? you got me." he said i nodded

"he's a monster i knew he killed people but now it's an addiction i dont know why he comes home late anymore i dont know what i did he beats me now im so stupid to forgive him too" i said breathing in and out trying to calm down

"you cant keep forgiving him Ash one day he's going to beat you to death" he said the sad thing is i knew it was true

"i know" i said crying more i hate the fact that i knew that he was going to hurt me to death someday scared the shit out of me i love Nate so much i never want to leave him he's my everything and i dont know why i just cant leave him

"jack can you leave" i asked nicely he nodded and kissed my temple

3:54 in the morning

I heard a thud downstairs i put on my sweatshirt and walked downstairs i could hear Nate talking to himself saying that im going to leave him once i find out that i'm going to kill him for lying i walked into the kitchen while standing in the door way with my arms crossed he looked up and saw me

"Ash" he breathed

"Nathan" i said bluntly

"im so sorry" he said

"what'd you do" i asked

"i-i kinda had sex with Grace" he said i stood there shocked i could feel the tears pricking at my eyes my arms dropped to my side i started shaking my head and walking away

"no no please im sorry it was a mistake" he said crying grabbing my wrist i could feel my blood boiling

"NO NATE NO MORE OF THIS BULLSHIT I CANT TAKE IT I HAVE GAVE MY HEART TO YOU" i yelled

"im sorry" he said

"no your not i've been through hell with you i have put up fights for you you've beat me up i forgive you every time i do not ever leave you wanna know why cause i love you so much and im sick and tired of trying with you i've gave you everything" i said crying i ripped my wrist from his grip
"Listen I can't keep coming back for you I'm sick of waiting on you to change" I said walking up the stairs
"Please don't leave me" he cried I just shook my head
"Your all I have" he yelled I cried even harder
"No I'm not you should really put a password on your phone jackass" I yelled he ran after me he turned me around
"Please just one last chance" he begged
"Please Nate just leave" I said he hugged me I hugged back
"Nate I can't this time"
"No, no I won't except that"
"Well your gonna have too" I yelled he stomped into the bedroom I followed him he took the picture of us on the night stand and held it to my face
"This is us I love you so much I've never ever felt this way about anyone all my exs I killed wanna know why they were never loyal they hurt me I'm a killer Ash I need chose this life my brother put me in it I've poured my heart to you I've gone soft but now I've gone hard again I couldn't stop it I'm sorry I'll leave you but I want to tell you this I love you Ashley so damn much and I'm sorry I ever hurt you" he said I hugged him he kissed my lips one last time he grabbed his bag and left I sat on my bed knowing I was probably not going to be leaving it for a long time I know I told him to leave but he had my heart he was my everything I got up and turned off the lights climbed in bed while attempting to fall asleep.

3:48 am
I woke up tossing and turning I sat up went downstairs and got a glass of water I sat on the counter just thinking about Nate and Jack, Jack, that's who I need right now. I jumped off the counter grabbed my keys and phone got in my car and drive to Jacks, once I got there I knocked on the door a couple minutes later he answered him wearing his plaid pj's and no shirt
"Ash?" He asked in his raspy voice
"Hey, I'm sorry it's late" I said shanking my head
"No baby, come in come in" he said grabbing my arm
"Can we uh go to sleep" I asked he nodded and carried me upstairs
"I love you" he said and kissed me
"I love you too" I said I fell asleep to his soft snores