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Chapter 3. Mia's POV

My life has been hard. Okay when I was 7 my mom got remarried and that was only the beginning after that I realized that he was abusive and as I got older he started to treat my brother like shit and push him and smack him and after that in grade 6 it got worse I thought I could trust this bitch hailey but I guess I couldn't bc she started saying to this other girl Taylor who tries to beat me so we fought like a fist fight and I punched her so hard in the nose I broke it and I got suspended then I went to live with my dad and it just got worse they started to cyber bully me and I had enough so I told my dad and he made me go get a guidance counsellor and she didn't help at all but it got really really bad a couple days ago when my best friend told me I wasn't part of her life anymore so I don't really know why I'm even here anymore like all my life is is a bunch of lies on top of lies and I can't do it I get bullied everyday You do know you basically know everything about me that is personal and I've had a hard life like just in Monday I lost my best friend and I can't do it I feel unwanted broken like and ugly peace of shit bc of the way people look at me and treat me and I just can't deal with it anymore I'm done with everyone and everything you don't know how hard it is I sit in front of the mirror everyday wondering why I'm still here and I have anxiety and when I was ten I had to get forced to go to Macs and have help on me its so hard. When I look in the mirror I see a failure that no one will ever like I hate how all my friends are pretty and so perfect and I feel bad for people who look at me. I just lost the person I care for. The person I trusted with my life. I loved him he was my best friend my life I know him and he knows me but now he hates me all because of two people. I had nothing to do with it but I lose my best friend for it it's not fair to me he actually cared for me that's the first. I've been though so much this week. I don't know what to do anymore. I just wanna be gone I want this pain to go away I can do it anymore. I'm done its to hard. I was born at the wrong time in the wrong place. I'm a mistake, my life is a mistake I'm worthless I know. K I gotta do this. Oh god where do I start?! This girl right here is my best friend in the whole entire world! If someone hurts her I will hurt them don't touch my girl or I kill you.
I honestly don't know what I would do with out her she's been there for me since day one! I love you Bethanni! Forever and always!
I love you so much thanks for being a part of my life I don't know what I would do with out you you've been there for me since day one and I wanna say thank you for that. Your amazing and I love you! I love you more than I did yesterday but not more than I will tomorrow.You are the reason I wake up with a smile. I honestly don't know what I do without you. I love you bestie nothing can break our friendship. If I lost you I would lose myself. I can't lose you! I love you Beth. Honestly I don't know what I would do without Beth, Destiny, David or Milos. Oh god where do I start?!

This girl right here is my best friend in the whole entire world! If someone hurts her I will hurt them don't touch my girl or I kill you.
I honestly don't know what I would do with out her she's been there for me since day one! I love you Destiny! Forever and always!
I love you so much thanks for being a part of my life. I don't know what I would do with out you you've been there for me since day one and I wanna say thank you for that. Your amazing and I love you! You are one of the reason I wake up with a smile. I honestly don't know what I do without you. I love you bestie. nothing can break our friendship. if I lost you I would lose myself. I can't lose you! I love you Dest.

David oh god where do I start (this is going to be long)
Your one of like 3 of my guy best friends and honestly I couldn't ask for a better best friend. You help me with everything. Your so amazing, and if I ever lost you as a friend I would die, I would miss you too much! I love you so much thanks for being a part of my life. I don't know what I would do with out you you've been there for me since day one and I wanna say thank you for that. Your amazing and I love you!I love you more than I did yesterday but not more than I will tomorrow.You are the reason I wake up with a smile. When you hugged me at the dance my heart skipped a beat I felt safe it's been so long since I've felt safe. I honestly don't know what I do without you. I love you bestie nothing can break our friendship

And Milos. Oh god this will be long.....
I love you more than I did yesterday but not more than I will tomorrow.You are the reason I wake up with a smile. You are on my mind 24X7.If I were to rephrase the alphabets, I'd keep 'U' & 'I' together.All my dreams came true the day I met you! Need I say more, I love you!Thinking about you is like breathing. It can't stop and it's essential for my survival.To be with you is all I desire, to hold you is all I hope for, to love you is all I dream of. If I could describe love in one word, I'd call it you.To keep our love alive, I need 1) you 2) me 3) our hearts for eternity.Roses are red, violets are blue, you are for me and I am for you.I'll hold your hand if you let me, I'll kiss you if you let me but I'll love you no matter what you tell me.you may be the one for me, but I'll never know for sure unless you tell me.Words begin with ABC, numbers begin with 123, and love begins with you and me.You make my world go round!For others, love is blind, but for me it isn't true, because when I fell in love, I saw you!Like a jewel, true love is rare to find, but I'm lucky because I found you!You've changed my life for the better. I am inspired to be different when I'm with you!I would move mountains and swim across oceans to be in your presence.You are always in my heart.You make my heart melt!My life shines when you are with me.You bring out the best in me. You are the reason I am on cloud 9.I may sound cheesy when I say I'll love you forever, but those words help me describe the exact feelings I have for you!We may fight and we may cry, but we'll get back, I'll tell you why- because you are the reason I'll survive.If I told you I couldn't live without you, would you know I'm trying to tell you that I love you?Your name written in sand was washed away, your name in the sky blew away, but your name is now in my heart, where it'll stay!If I could hold you forever, I would, if I could look at your forever, I would, if I could be with you forever, I would!We are meant to be together. I love you and you love me, in my heart you'll always be, here or there, near or far, my love will be wherever you are!I found love when I found you.Even though we are far apart, my love for you will feed on the distance between us and only grow!My love for you is like the stars, invisible sometimes but always available if you look for it with all your heart!You make me smile and you make me cry, but if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't know what to do!My life is dedicated to you!I'm afraid to close my eyes for I don't want to miss seeing you, even if it's for one second.If love was a song, I'd sing it with you, if love was a game, I'd play it with you but if love was a person, I'm sure it would be you!You were chosen for me to love amongst the rest because I would love you the best!Love teaches you until you learn, even if it takes long, it takes you where you belong!When we are together, I feel better, stay with me forever, so I always feel safer!Your love is like the sun for me. It keeps me alive and it makes me glow!You are the reason for the smile on my face, the laughter in my eyes and the joy in my life, I love you.You complete me. You are my soul mate. We are together and that's what matters!If anyone asked me to define love, I'd send them to you so they could see a real example of what that feeling actually is!My love for you is growing with every second of this day.To see the smile on your face is all I desire, to see your eyes gleam with joy I all I want, if I want that for me more than for you, then I think I love you!When I wake up, I see your face before me. You may call that crazy, I call it love!A part of me is missing without you. Complete me!you mean the entire galaxy too me.