-- Not Yet -- GiyuShino

• -- Do I really? -- •

_________________________________________

It was 2 weeks before Shinobu Kocho would sacrifice her poisoned body to the Upper moon 2. Her hair was down and she was wearing a soft cotton kimono to bed. She had just drank a bit of poison. She needed to drink as much as she could so she could kill the beast that murdered her beloved sister. The beast who ate thousands of women for fun and pleasure. The beast who called himself a God who called himself kind and helpful. Anger inraged her.

She took a breath. "Shinobu, don't spend the night being angry. Be happy!" She told Kanao and the rest of the hashira about it. Well, except Giyu. She loved Giyu. She really really did! Ever since their first mission, she fell in love. She playfully poked him, she stood around him and laughed at him, she gave him advice when fighting, she healed his wounds and sicknesses, sometimes she even just spent a couple minutes with him for pleasure. He annoyed but calmed her to. She couldn't explain it..

"Shinobu, you'll make yourself sad if you think about the others. Focus on your skills and moves. How will you thrust into Doma? How will you use your different poisons in different orders? Which poison would work better on an uppermoon? Make sure your not to tired for tomorrow. You need to train for the couple of weeks you have left. Even once you die, you must try with every muscle, bone, cell, limb, organ, and joint. Do this for your sister, do this for your parents, do this for Kanao, and Aoi, Do it for the hashira! Do it for Naho, Sumi and Kiyo. Try. Try as hard as you can."

But she couldn't focus. Most of her wanted to kill him, and she'd do anything just so she could! But the other half of her wanted to stay alive.

"Shinobu, please, quit the demon slayer corps. I..I just want you to become a normal girl and live happily! Please! Quit, for me!"

Her sisters words roamed her head like a lost child looking for their mother.

"Do I really want to do this?"

She thought.

"Do I really want to leave behind everything and everyone? Do I want to leave behind Kanao, Aoi, Naho, Sumi, Kiyo, Giyu, Tanjiro, Mitsuri, Rengoku, the patients, everyone just so I can avenge my sister? I loved my sister more then anything in the whole entire world! But if her only wish was for me to live normally and happily, should I fight?"

She thought. The lost child, or, thought, wandered through her full head. She got up and covered her ears. She was scared, and she was sad. She didn't know what would happen after that day. Sure, she'd die, but what if she couldn't kill Doma and he'd contuine to live on and kill more women and hashira? All her hard work just for a simple failure?

Her sisters words contuined to wander and roam. It drove her crazy.

"Shinobu, please, quit the demon slayer corps. I..I just want you to become a normal girl and live happily! Please! Quit, for me!"

...

"Shinobu, please, quit the demon slayer corps. I..I just want you to become a normal girl and live happily! Please! Quit, for me!"

Go away..

"Shinobu, please, quit the demon slayer corps. I..I just want you to become a normal girl and live happily! Please! Quit, for me!"