Sarah and Beverly's marriage had become rocky especially when infidelity is involved.
Is the other woman to blame?
Beverly finds comfort in the arms of another women as life around her continues.
Five children shared between the pair and many regre...
I stood alone in the kitchen making breakfast for everyone when Sarah's phone wouldn't stop going off.
I glanced over at the phone hesitantly before trying to focus on the pancake quickly cooking on the hot stove.
After a few moments, everything was ready to be served but the persistent dinging from Sarah's phone hadn't slowed.
Quietly I turned the phone on
Holland💖: I miss you Holland💖: Sarah? Holland💖: I hope I didn't do anything to upset you. Holland💖: Sar bear? Sweetheart you're scaring me. Holland💖: Come see me today Holland💖: I love you ❤️
I gasped silently as I felt just how many pieces my heart had shattered into as the shards fell right through my chest landing harshly in the pit of my stomach.
I hastily placed the phone back before calling everyone for breakfast plastering a comfortable smile on my face as we all took a seat.
I couldn't confront Sarah about this Holland person while the children were around it was simply unfair to them.
We all began to eat in silence when I spoke up "so Sar bear, anything new?" I asked her softly "no. just same old same old with work" she admitted not meeting my eyes.
"How's Jess? Haven't seen her in ages" that's a lie I saw her the other day with the twins "she's doing well, said she misses you loads" she laughed nervously.
I nodded my head trying not to laugh "any plans today?" I looked at her more softly "What's with all the questions!" She snapped still trying to force out a laugh.
"Nothing. I just wanted to see what you were doing, I've got to take the twin's school shopping today that's all" I held my hands up in defence.
"Oh. Sorry" she said sheepishly turning a light shade of red and looking down.
"No worries Sar bear" I teased although jealousy and rage filled my senses and yet I wouldn't dare show it in front of the children.
Before we were all done Sarah once again had to shoot off for "work" leaving the kids to slump down with disappointment in their seats.
"Hey, it's okay, how about we go and get ready? We can get Icecream when we finish shopping" I offered in hope of lifting their mood.
We all childishly raced up the stairs, I went simple yet classy.
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Luke and Rhiannon didn't want to join deciding to spend the day with friends.
Each twin held one of my hands as we walked towards the store paparazzi surrounding us.
"Beverly is it true that you and Sarah Paulson have divorced?"
"Beverly over here!"
"Mrs James are the rumours true?!"
"Ms James, did you know Sarah Paulson has been caught kissing another actress Holland Taylor?"
That one made me pause Holland? Holland Taylor that was who she was I mentally laughed at myself as I chose to ignore them.
"Mum" Catherine tugged on my sleeve "what did that man mean?" She asked innocently gazing up at me.
"He was just speaking nonsense love" I smiled reassuringly pulling her into a quick hug. It was just nonsense that was more likely than not true, unfortunately.
"Okay, enough about that. How about we do some shopping?" I asked the small girl who nodded as enthusiastically as her brother.
The Holland Taylor woman stuck in my head as the paparazzi continued to yell attempting to gain my attention.
I wonder what I look like in your eyes.
I grasp the kid's small hands a little tighter as our pace quickens, the rate of my heart drumming its own beat.
Soon enough reaching the seemingly empty uniform shop letting out a breath I didn't realise I had been holding.
If the public already knew how long was it till my marriage legally ended although physically it had been years.
I felt like a used toy that just sat in the cluttered box tucked away out of sight in the corner until someone finally remembered about it.
I had given the best years of my life to work, Sarah, my children and my family but this is how I'm repaid. Cheated.
Funnily she knew it was my biggest fear, Cassiopeia's father had cheated and I left but when it came to Sarah. She made me feel everything and nothing all at once, this bittersweet melody I fell so comfortably in love with.
Holland Taylor the woman who I wanted to both hug and slap for ruining my marriage and family but finally setting me free.
