Life Of A Thorned Rose

Darkness' Reign

It's my fault.
Is it?
Because to them,
It seems to be.
I hate it!
Why am I..
Crying?

Is it because I am to be blamed?
For everything to happen to me?
I'm lost...
I don't need your help you B*st*rd!
I want to scream and shout my anger,
For my mistake.
But I'm too stubborn to admit it.

I stay hiding under the staircase,
Because I like to be alone now.
It's dark and I can stay away from them.
I feel like smiling the pain away,
But why I'm still crying?
Is it because of them?
No.

Then what is it?!
You.
Oh...
I'm lonely and stupid to figure out.
That I hurt myself the most.
If my life was a game right now,
Then life there would be pointless.

I lost my courage to fight my feelings.
For every time I fight with the others.
Because I lost my cover,
I lost my armor and shield.
To protect me from them,
from hurting me.
I lost my wit and will.

To fight for myself and those I believed to my friends.
Because I'm crying these feeling,
That I build up that wall to keep away those hurtful insults.
I don't know anymore...
Because my personal walls,
Is demolished from the force.
Unlocked my locks,

That held chains to my heart.
How do I feel know?
Loneliness, Pain, Sadness and Weak.
What you expect?
Me to take it all in?
To just say nothing?!?
Well I already took in a lot,

Or even more,
Then I'm supposed to.
I gave up Hope and even God himself.
For all the feelings,
That I bottled up and I thought I threw them away.
But its back now because now Karma had to be a B*tch!
Did I deserved this now?

Yes...
So you caught me and I failed to defeat you.
I sit down crying because I lost to you.
I'm in pain and I'm broken.
I surrendered my Light,
To Darkness and thanks to you,
I'm screaming to be freed from tears.

That I cry almost every night in a dark cell,
I tried to free myself.
But I didn't resist, when they chained me.
It's my nightmare in the field of daydreams.
I hugged myself and to feel stupid.
Will someone find me?
Will you save me?

I forgot,
I'm now a crying mess that lost hope,
In a change.
I plead for someone to find me and saved me.
But at the same time,
I'm still Scared, Weak and Timid.
I'm still screaming,

Quietly and no could hear me.
I wanted to die,
To escape this embarrassment and be in a different world.
Someone saved me.
Someone actually found me!
I happy inside.
I began to cry.

Again,
But this time I cried happy.
It hugged me and helped me to stop my cries.
It hugged me.
I missed...
That feeling of feeling loved.
That's,

When I regain hope slowly.
From being found and being saved from the Darkness' chains.
It saved me from being a prisoner of this battle.

Save Me, Find Me, I Just Don't Want To Lose Myself To The Darkness
Don't Give Up, Someone Will Be There For You And Never Lose Hope When There's Still Time.