Go Big or Go Home - 이희승/Enhypen

Interview gone wrong

It was promotional time for our second album border: carnival, and we were all styled and dressed up for our last interview of this week.

We were honestly having a lot of fun, and the interviewer was great. Our managers behind the camera relaxed and mostly tried not to laugh along or scrolled through their phones. The atmosphere was comfortable, and the mood was overall light-hearted and playful.

All 8 of us were sat in two rows of 4 people each. I sat at the back on the 2nd to the chair from the right, sunoo in front, and Jay and sunghoon next to me.
Next to Sunoo were Heesung and Jake.

Sunoo was currently pouting his lips and jabbing a finger into Sunghoons side as we were all writing out answers to questions about our members on little whiteboards, competing to see who knows the other best. Sunghoon had taken the opportunity to draw a tiny disgusted face next to his answer "Mint chocolate" when we were asked about his favorite ice cream flavour, which provoked Sunoo to deliver the exact reaction Sunghoon had been hoping for, taking delight in teasing his members as a sign of affection.

He whooped "YESS" and clenched his fist in the air in victory as he got his point, just like everyone else did, just to rub it in a little further and everyone joined with his laughter.

My hand rubbed Sunoos back soothingly, but also in reminder that he needs to keep his expression in check. "My poor sun, everyone keeps teasing you"
He nodded his head, still pouting his plush bottom lip, eyes sparkling from the bright studio light. He almost really did glow like the sun, innocently shining.

"Hey, I thought I was your favourite Son!" Niki shouted in protest and Jay groaned next to me. Jungwon giving him a blank stare for shouting unnecessarily.
"She said Sun, not Son. Don't worry you're still her wittle baby" and I laughed, reaching behind Jakes back to ruffle up Nikis hair.

The others smiled at our antics and the interviewer thoroughly enjoyed our antics.

"Okay, next question! Let's move on to the next member. Let's see how well you know our Princess Sooha of the group."

I grimaced slightly at the nickname, still not entirely happy with our companies decision to film the Royal concept for our last music video and photoshoot with me as a princess.

"We looked through your old content and found some interesting things she once mentioned in a vlog. The question is:
Where is Soohas hidden birthmark?
I'll give you thirty seconds."

The lady started a timer and the boys started scrambling for their markers, a few turning to me to search my exposed face and forearms for any hints.

But I knew they wouldn't find it as I knew it was in an area no outfit would ever reveal in public. Right above my left upper thigh, on my hip, was a little heart shape I knew I mentioned before as a cute little TMI in one of our old EN-logs right before our debut.

"Times up" she declared as the timer beeped and mentioned for us to turn around our answers.

" Okay so we've got... shoulder twice, Niki said back, Jay said knee and jungwon jake and Heeseung said Hip."

"It's on my Hip" I smiled happy to see them actually get it right.

I never doubted that Heeseung would know the answer, considering the amount of times he spend cuddling with me at night or right after waking up, one arm slung around my back to hold my waist from underneath, and one hand resting right at my hip, thumb slowly caressing the skin above the bone, where the birthmark sat, my head usually buried into his neck, occasionally dropping little kisses onto his shoulder.

It also explained the little heart he drew in the corner of the board he was holding, mimicing its shape.
But the fact that jake as my best friend and Jungwon, our diligent leader, were watching my solo content made my heart swell in appreciation.

"Okay then, bonus question for you 3, whoever answers first, gets an extra point: On which side is it?"

Jungwon tilted his head in question, laughing slightly "how would we kno-"

"Left hipbone" Heeseung cut him off, shoulders raising nonchalantly.

All of our heads turned to him within seconds and I sucked my breath in, eyes wide in panic and the manager cleared his throat aggressively.

Sunoos mouth stood wide open until he remembered to cover it using his hand, eyes flickering from Heeseung to me and back a few times.

He was definitely NOT suppost to know that as my male bandmate, and totally not secret boyfriend.

Only when his eyes met my panicked ones did the realisation that he said something, that he shouldn't have known, a little too fast, settle in.

"Wha-?.... O-oh ehm. I mean it was a 50-50 chance right?"
He tried to safe himself and looked back at me and then the camera, putting on a charming smile.

Sunghoon scoffed in disbelief and Jay threw him a glance that screamed "I knew it". Jake turned next to me, face closing in on my ear "Oh we are so talking about this later" He whispered and I silently cursed Heeseung in my head as I knew I would never hear the end of this.

I spluttered a little flustered, a pink shade starting to color my cheeks, and gave him a warning "love tap" aka a very light slap to his upper arm as warning.
"stop it, there's nothing to talk about" I replied and turned away from him, hiding my face into Nikis shoulder, who was eyeing all of us a little confused.

But it was too late and management was not having it. A silent conversation passed between me, Jungwon and the manager and I nodded at them. Better safe than sorry.

"Please cut the last part out." The manager addressed the shows producer and interviewer in a stern tone. They nodded in agreement, not wanting to cause any tension.

The kind lady looked at me unsure one last time before snapping out of it and professionally putting on a smile for the camera.

"Moving on ..."

The rest of the interview luckily passed without further interruptions and we were all ushered back into the car.

Like always, I sat down in middle row next to the window and Heeseung sat next to me, a hand on the small of my back automatically guiding me and helping me into the car. This time however, I felt everyone's eyes lingering on us whenever his hand made contact.

About 20 minutes into the car ride I was still flustered an avoided looking at anyone by staring out of the window and counting the traffic signs in hopes they would just forget about it and put it off as a coincidence.
I was already at 38, when a hand slipped in mine and pried its way in-between my fingers, locking our hands together for comfort.

Holding hands was something we all often did and noone ever questioned it when I took jungwon's or Jake's hand but I couldn't help but feel exposed now that Jay's suspicion was confirmed and sunoo sunghoon and jake definitely knew something was up too.

I finally turned to look around and into Heeseungs face. Noone was looking at us anymore and when he leaned closer to me and silently offered me one of his wired headphones, brushing a strand of my hair behind my ear with the soft tips of his fingers, I knew nothing had really changed.

So I finally relaxed my side into his, head resting onto his shoulder like I often did during longer car rides and closed my eyes.

It was going to be alright. I was just going to avoid talking to Jake for a few days.