my disaster..

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Only when i released that i feel myself
Everything start to change.
I start to ask many questions many
Ideas but no one can answer them.
My only goal was to find people feel the same us me but i think i couldn't.
My name is. Bella
Who lives in a disaster her while life.
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When i was i little i tried to blend with other people so i start to make friends.
When i found one..... Yeah they gone.
It's start to be a normal thing in my life making a friend then lose them.
Believe it or not i made a friendship that goes for 7 years. But after all that time she was my biggest enemy.
Is that normal for most of you?
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What about family, for most of us it's the comfort place to relax and open your heart with. But to me there is nothing like that actually. It's the place where all my nightmares and sadness started. People hate you for no reason.
All what they want is to work for them in silence. Don't talk to much kid you are not that important.
This words was and still my weak point.
Haha funny when i say that right?..
No it's not because that is the problem of the low of confidence for most of us.
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Can't we talk about love?
Yeah of course all of us have experience with this thing.
For me i give love but no one give it back
"I gave all of me    but    i lost me"
All who hurt me i love them back.
So what should i do should i take my heart of and give it a slap to go back normal??....if possible i would love to do it.
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Can i live normal after all that oc not i have many problem that no one can understand and i keep saying bella you can do it. Don't be scared it's okk you past many things.

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