Maybe Life Does Sucks.. // Art by myself (DISCONTINUED)

[Chapter 1]

A/N: Hello, and this is a story of a depressed Dream Sans. This is kinda like a vent book.. (I'm not only writing vents on Dream's part only btw.) Also everyone's a human in this fanfic.

[Dream's pov:]

I was relaxing around until I got called for a battle. I hate battles but I have to do it to stop the bad sanses of course. I hate battles because I'll get hurt. Well, I mean everyone gets hurt in a battle.. I don't know why I'm so scared of getting hurt. Maybe I'm overreacting to something that we don't even need to worry about. Like I always does.

Me, Ink and Swap ran up to the Bad Sanses and saw a lot of chaos. It was a bit too much for me. I felt pain in my chest. It's like people's lungs after too much smoking but in a really fast pace. It just hurt. I was so distracted by the pain until feeling Killer hitting me. I fell into the snow and got back up again. I then summoned my bow and arrow. Things about to go down.

I started shooting my arrows at Killer but he kept destroying them with his knife. I kept doing that until Nightmare joins in. That's just great. I shot at both of them now. They didn't have time to dodge it. So it hit. We were almost winning until the chaos were a causing too much and cause me to have the pain in my chest back. But worse. I even fell my knees.

Nm looks happy because he fucking won by impaling me into the chest, almost damaged Ink's head and almost killed Swap. He called the others and left the AU. We lost. We lost.. .. "DREAM!" I heard Swap cried out before I blacked out.

I woke up in a dark place. I think I'm still asleep. I think it's just my mind. My mind can't even develop a dream for me anymore. Just great. I was praying for it to not be a nightmare but even how much I prayed, it was still a nightmare. I saw my friends getting killed, impaled, stabbed by the bad sanses. For some reason, I didn't do anything. I just stand there shook.

Just like how I did to Nighty.. Ugh I'm the worst brother to ever exist. I'm so stupid. I saw Nightmare arriving close to me. Then disturbing eyes popped out and watches me. So much that's going on.. I couldn't look away.. Nightmare grabbed me as he took my soul. I can't move. I can't take it back.. I saw that one last golden apple slowly turning into black.

My body felt like it was burning. I felt myself melt onto Nightmare's hand. "Push him away." a voice said. I tried. I really really tried. But I couldn't push him away. Now one of my arm melted. I tried kicking him. Punching him. Everything. But just basically melted. Before my whole body melted..

I woke up. I saw Ink and Swap being worried. Healing my body as hard as they can. I could tell that they're tired by now. I tried using my own powers but they.. malfunctioned. Again. It just brings me more pain. I cried. I cried.? Oh that's just weird. Now all my disturbing thoughts just get to me. They tell me that I'm useless, stupid and worthless.

Then a thought come up to me. They have said that I don't deserve to live. Living doesn't means ANYTHING to myself. All people need is my aura. Not myself. Not me being myself at all. Ink seems to know what I'm thinking about. And he just hugged me. Swap also hugged me. I just hugged back. They are the bestest friends I have ever had.

They're so nice to me. Always there for me. Buy me gifts, reminds me to have my medicines and.. and... I was never for them. Or maybe did I? Oh no.. My brain's messing up everything all again. I then felt Swap pulled me to stand up and drags me to the garden to calm me down. I mean, it worked. The garden's so peaceful, I like it. No people. Just me and the flowers.

I then lay down on a pile of flowers and looks up to the sky. It was midnight. I was surprised that it's midnight. Did I faint for that long? I don't care. I look to Swap and ask "What time is it? If it's late then you could enter and sleep first. I'll be right behind you so don't worry!" Swap smiled and replied "It is quite late.. and I'm really tired. I want to head to bed but I'm just worried for you."

I frowned but put a fake smile then "Ok, ok, I'll get in!" I said 'happily' as I stand up and ran to inside and straight to upstairs. I hear the doors getting locked and Swap following me behind. He stretches his back and enters his bedroom. I also headed to my bedroom. As I enter the bedroom, I look outside to the left and right. I closed my door and locks it.

I open my drawer and see my cutter. I promised to stop but I can't. Life is shitty. I know I'll get to hell if I kill myself but I don't care. I grabbed it and cut my wrist, body and my leg. Some of the cuts are deep so it hurts when I tried to move. I took a shower, I put soap on my body, which hurts so badly. And wear my pajamas and just lay there not heading to sleep.

I'm scared of being asleep. I didn't want to sleep anymore. I felt so, so bad and cried. I just cried in the night until Nightmare entered. I didn't really care. I just continued to cry. Crying just hurts my guts. I want to die so badly. I could felt Nightmare staring at me. Seeing me curled up into a ball and holding back a barf.

I didn't wait anymore. I got off the bed and ran to bathroom and let out a really disgusting barf. I closed the toilet and flush it down. I washed the inside of my mouth and nose. Nightmare was at the bathroom door looking at me worriedly. I grunted and heads to the door and pushes him aside. I went to kitchen take my medicines.

My guts are still hurting. I took every single pill that my doctor gave to me. Anxiety pills, barfing pills, coughing pills. There's a bit too many I couldn't even tell which one I'm eating. After I'm done I head back to my bedroom and.. Nightmare left? So soon. Thought I could make a small talk but I think he's disgusted by me. I got onto my bed, eat my melatonin which is in my drawer and slowly drift to sleep due to tiredness.

[Nightmare's pov:]

What the actual fuck did I just saw. Dream crying, barfing and took pills? That pills were a bit too much. I even saw him smile after taking a random pill. I assume it's happy pill. That's just.. fucked up. I felt bad. I just want to hug him but afraid that if he thinks I'm weird and pushes me away and screams at me.

I kept overthinking about my dear sibling until an idiot interrupted me. "Sup boss! Did ya find that heavy negativity that you felt?" Killer said. "Yes, yes. Hey why aren't you sleep yet? Tomorrow I need you and the others for a mission. So head to sleep would ya?" I slowly shouted to prevent from waking up the others. Killer smiled and nodded and leave the office.

As soon as he leave, I stood up, closing the switches and leave my office. I just walk to my bedroom and sleep. It is a tiring day after all.

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First chapter done!! And also, for the people who experience the same stuff as this, I'm sorry. I hope y'all get more better <33

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