Do you love me? (John Doe x male reader)

chapter 5 | the unforgettable incident

(A/N)
Warning attempted suicide if you are very iffy about this type of content please turn away from this chapter and read my other books or read the books in my library just don't read this if you're very iffy about suicide and if you are a loved one is thinking about committing suicide please seek help thank you my lovely follower's

(Past Y/N POV)
I can't take it anymore all they do is yell at each other I can't even take it anymore, I hear a thud and crying signaling that dad had just hit mom I started crying in the corner harder. As I move I accidentally bumped my dresser knocking down the vace as it shatters to the floor, my father and mother walks in and father head straight toward me he grabbed me by my hair and started dragging me out the door not even caring that my bare skin was cutting against the glass, I started screaming and crying begging and pleading but he wouldn't let me go. I've had enough of this I don't want to live anymore I don't want to live in this hell that I've been put in. the next day after I got home from school I knew my parents wouldn't be back home for a little while, I walked to the kitchen I made myself something to eat and contemplated of what to use to kill myself, I know killing myself a little too cliche but I don't care anymore after I ate my food I walked into my mom's sewing room, I know she kept razor blades in there I walked to her sharp object box and pulled out a rusty razor blade I walked to the bathroom and lock the door. When my parents got home they found me in the bathroom with my wrist slit they drove me to the hospital the doctor saved my life but they only put me into hell again, after I got home from the hospital my dad started beating me for trying to commit suicide and ever since I've been trying to kill myself.

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(Y/N POV)
I woke up in a cold sweat when I looked next to me I saw a Doe was gone, I told Doe of my past before but he said he wouldn't do anything he knows that he can't help something that happened in the past but I couldn't help but get this feeling something was going to go very wrong today. I got out of bed and picked a few clothes out and took a shower when I walked out of it I heard Doe clamber through the door, I look towards the front door and saw that it was covered in blood it looked fresh and I knew it wasn't his, "Doe are you alright?" I asked but I knew the answer "yes my love I'm fine... Just had to take care of something..." He walked towards me and hugged me "are you having those nightmares still love if you are I can help you I'll cuddle you all you want" he said "thanks Doe I'm fine really" he kissed my head and held me close, when I walked into the kitchen to make myself something to eat I saw a text from my parents saying that they were sorry for treating me the way that they did and to come back home, I knew that they were lying they only just wanted to cause me more pain because I was there homosexual son and they wanted to straight normal perfect son that can give them a grandchild, I knew that when I told them that I liked guys they would never love me but now I found someone who really loves me. And has never tried anything unforgivable.

(A/N)
Sorry this one was so short I'll try again tomorrow please don't be angry at me I do try to make sure that you guys have something to read and if you want you can tell me what I should do character x reader on just tell me in the comments love you my lovely followers