It's my birthday, Lily, my parents, and I go out of town for my birthday. Lily got me new shoes, a photo board full of pictures of me and her together. So much pictures on there I love it and adore it, will for sure put it in my room in a place I can see it everyday I walk in there. She also got me the bite size Kit Kat bag and nutty buddy, I love those mmm diabetes JK. I love Lily so much and she knows it. We all went to Sea world and Six flags. The joy I had during the whole thing was amazing, the excitement, happiness, and love. The only bad part about everything was how tiring it was. We visited downtown and we rode scooters, ate food in this area with whole bunch of restaurants and stores by a water path. It was super cool, now I already visited this place before, but it was years ago and I honestly barely remembered the last Visit. Everything i experienced and saw felt completely new. After we ate, we couldn't find our car. I love funny memories, but it was stressful. My parents getting mad about going wrong ways and just being kind of lost was stressful. Downtown though was very peaceful and everyone downtown goes there to have a nice time. I don't get that where I live so it's very nice having new things. My parents, Lily, and I rode a carriage. It was so pretty and the horse was super pretty too. 20 minutes of riding in the carriage through out downtown was amazing, the downtown is beautiful... like Lily is. We went back to the hotel after visiting downtown. The hotel was nice... until 2 days later we discover something, but before telling that... Lily and I cuddled in bed. I adore Lily so much and I love cuddling. It's super peaceful and very comfortable, recommended 10/10 cuddling with s/0. Oh yes also the drive up to the place took 12 hours of drive time to get there because of traffic and construction. I'm not complaining tho because I still get to spend time with Lily and my parents. Whole birthday dream right there come true. Everything basically went to according to plan in the end at least on my case. The next day we all wake up, eat breakfast then go to Seaworld/aquatica. I like water park and rides in general. Holy one of the rides at Seaworld was completely new and was the highest and fastest ride there. I was scary and I held LILYS hand the whole time. My bday was perfect, every thing went to plan I mean we got to do everything I wanted to do. LIly and I are coming up on our one year sort of fast. I'll always be here for her even through the hard times. I love Lily and her parents, her parents relationship is the best and cute(besides my parents). I love Lily sending old pictures of her and her dad together or her and her brother together or her and her mom together ect. It's just so cute, I have a lot of memories with my parents and brothers, but those are in my mind and yea my parents took pictures and all that, but Lily childhood was adorable... she was a adorable baby. The amount of pictures she has with her parents and family makes me regret not taking pictures with my family when I first got a phone. Even if Things are happening now with LILYS side, I just want her parents, her brother, and her to understand that I genuinely love them. They've always been there for me and never mistreated me once, make me feel super wanted by people other than family. I have this sad feeling on my mind and in my stomach that I can't get away and I know that if I'm sad, Lily is definitely completely more sad. I just want her to understand sad things aren't always have to end with "it's okay" or "it's fine" or "I'm fine" it's okay not to be happy at the moment and she says that, but I know she's not any of those. I want her to be able to talk to me at some point about it, how she truly feels. She doesn't like change and she told me that, this is going to be a drastic change in her life that sucks so much and can be mentally draining, so I really want her to be able to talk to me about these type of things with or without hesitation. I just wanna like be able to ask "Are you okay" and she starts ranting about something because I always ask if she's okay and sometimes she gets mad at me for asking so much, but it's just because I care and some people don't even get asked are they okay ever. It's just always nice to check up on people even if you talk to that person everyday, I don't even get to see her everyday as expected for a teenage relationship so I just gotta always ask is she okay or if she needs to talk I'm always there because it's nice either crying it out or getting something off your chest. I want to say to her parents that I love them in person and that's one thing I wanna get off my chest, I want to give them a big hug because I appreciate them so much. I ask myself how could this even happen and I can't process why or how it even happens. I wanna talk to LILYS parents about it because even if they aren't my parents I'm still sad about it. In these ten months of knowing them and nine months of dating their beautiful daughter, I've grown close to them. They're so loveable and I love spending time with them. I feel like I'm just hanging around really close friends and I don't even have like really close friends or that much friends at all, only have one super close friend. To even think it could even happen is crazy, never thought it could happen, never imagined it. I just really hope Lily can get through this tough moment in life and be happy in the end with the decisions. Something's are just better even if it doesn't seem that way. Anyways enough of that part completely depresso expresso. Sometimes I just think when I'm sitting down doing nothing or just in school, how grateful and thankful I am that Lily is in my life. She's always just simply astounding to be by either way if she gets annoyed at little things, but that's okay. I like annoying Lily at times until it gets to the point to where I'm annoying her everyday then I just can't bare to hate myself for it. Every time I thought she'd lose feelings, she would prove me wrong. This girl of mine truly actually loves me and she's stayed for almost a year and for that I can't help but to love her. She may not be able to erase All the bad memories that I've had in the past or be able to take everything bad out of my life, but she's stayed for all this time and that makes me happy just as it is and she makes me happy just as she is. I love, adore, appreciate Lily and no matter what I'll always come back to her, always find my way back to the one for me.
