A/N- hey besties!!! Haw yall doing? Hope you're drinking enough water. Grab some snacks, tissues and choccy milk cuz this is my first ever fanfic 💀 and the rides bouta be bumpy.... anywayssss. These two sillies have taken over my whole being!!! Guess I got sick of reading so many fics (as if) and wanted to insert one of my late night scenerios inspired by the song Mary on a cross.
NO SMUT!!! I refuse to smut! Sorry not sorry. _____________________ _________________________
(Takes place right after the BBQ at sam's)
it was a pleasant morning, bucky had spent the night at Sam's place in Louisiana. unlike here in Brooklyn, he felt very safe and peaceful there than here. Weather if it was because of the people or because of the nature-surrounded place which granted him peace, was upto himself.
Bucky was shaken out of his thoughts by none other than Sam wilson himself. He took in his surroundings, he was in Sam's car being driven to his apartment in Brooklyn.
"I can hear those gears turning in that pretty lil head of yours... again" sam said with a knowing smirk on his face. It had become an inside joke between the two men at this point. Bucky said nothing. He just smiled. 'Also did sam literally just call him pretty?'
"Seriously buck. What's wrong? Why are you worried?" That's sam for you, people. The man that can see trough all your lies and emotions. Bucky knew sam wouldn't stop pestering him until he got the truth out.
"Nothing sam. Don't worry I'm fine. It's just- *sigh* I don't know, I just keep thinking about how after all that's happend, like the snap and everything, I just don't know how to settle into this 'normal lifestyle' I guess when we don't have to save the world every 2 weeks, I just feel like I have- no purpose left?" Bucky never opened up like this to anyone. Not even his therapist (especially his therapist 💀) but it somehow felt easier to get things off his chest when sam is around.
"I know." Sam said sighing. "It feels like there's this big deep hole in your entire being. Like you have to be there to protect everyone? Feeling extremely paranoid and jumpy as to what happens next?" Sam looked over to bucky who was now completely looking at him dumbfounded. He looked like a confuse puppy. God this man baby was just too adorable for Sam to handle.
Sam averted his eyes back to the road still feeling bucky's eyes in him.
"After the blip, I was a real mess. I've never really told anyone this, but..." sam was trying to find the perfect words "I was not myself after what happened. And with suddenly being dumped with all this captain america legacy and whatnot, it was ... hard" sam may look all cheerful and happy all the time but that man had been through some messed up shit. And bucky knows it too well
"But I had people who genuinely cared about me. Sarah and the kids helped me a LOT and would you believe me if I said you did too? You might not even know it but you, James Bucky barnes, have helped me during something I couldn't have done alone." Bucky just died and ascended to heaven in his mind. Both of them were trying so hard not to smile.
As they arrived near the apartment, sam spoke. "all I'm saying is, buck, You don't have to do anything alone. I had people who care about me, just know that I care about you all the same. I've got your back. and promise me that whatever happens, we share it with each other. Deal?"
Sam wasn't even thinking about what he was saying, the words just came on their own. He was starting get a familiar fuzzy feeling in his stomach as he noticed bucky looking directly in his eyes.
Bucky beamed a smile. The genuine one that was extremely very rare which, ironically started to get more often than not, whenever he was with sam. The eye contact made his head feel woozy.
"I see whose the one talking about 'sharing' things" Bucky joked trying to lighten the mood.
Receive an friendly jab in the shoulder in return.
Both men shared soft looks as bucky got off the car. they waved each other goodbye as sam started to drive off.
After sam was out of his view, bucky turned to go inside the apartment while hiding a smile (and a blush 😏)
As he was about to unlock the door to his house, bucky felt a slight tinge on his right arm, he looked down to notice a small chip - like thingie was injecting something in his arm... before he could remove the chip or turn around and see who did this, his vision blurred around the edges, soon enough, the last thing he felt was him hitting the cold hard wooden floor in the hallway.
Sam was driving away smiling to himself. He didn't know when or how but he knew deep in his mind, that he somehow developed feelings for bucky. It's honestly funny. If he told himself 5 years ago, that he would be simping over the 100 year old man who was annoying him to death at that time, he would have laughed at his face.
Subconsciously sam looked over to the place bucky was sitting and found the jacket bucky loved so much was left behind in his seat. Even tho he could just keep it and return it later, sam figured since he only drove like 2 blocks away, he would just take up this chance and go pay bucky a 'surprise visit'
A/N - I'm currently going trough a lot of emotional misery because of my cold... I rarely ever get a cold or a fever but when I do, that mf hits me like a sledgehammer to the face 💀 I just wanna evaporate 😭😭😭 is that too much to ask?! So anyway I don't have the physical or the emotional strength to proof read or edit this so whatever happens next is between you and God. 🗿
P.s yall bucky's not dead 💀💀lmfao you'll see what happens next chapter, whether it's out sooner or later is upto my mood and or motivation 🥲👍
Reminder: drink water, take the chicken out of the freezer, laundry, bury the body.
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Fanfiction2 dumbasses, very traumatized and very in love.... I feed on angst so watch out for that I guess 💀 + tw- trauma, ptsd etc.... it's sambucky what do you expect- T-T The first 2 chapters are whack 💀 skip if you want to NO SMUT!!! Back off people...
