Secret Sister

Chapter 2:The Present

After a week after my wedding it was finally my eighteenth birthday. On my Eighteenth birthday i expected mum to visit but she diddnt. Although i was mad and angry at her and i always would be. A saddness came over me feeling like i diddnt care about her although i still do. She could be dead for all i know. Maybe thats what i wanted two years ago but now i just want to see her healthy and happy. But i let her go out on the streets living rough. Where i gave her a free pass to go and use drugs and drink alchole. I gave her the life i wanted her away from.

I invited everyone over for my birthday but there was something in the air. People were not happy and i had no idea why. I go up and say a speach. "I just want to say a massive thakyou for you all coming and i dont know why you all have faces like a slapped weekend but its my eighteenth and we need to party in style." In the back ground the music on the radio stops and the news woman says. "Homeless woman who was found in a life threatening situation who is being treated in hospital has been named as Hayley Waldrip and she is 39 yers old. Police are trying to track down family if you know anyone who knows hayley please get in touch." I drop the mickrophone and run. Malkolm my best frined runs after me. "Jessica im sorry we wanted to tell you." I run, run and run. Until i loose malkolm. I get to an alley way and fall to the ground in tears. I did this to her me. If she dies it is on me.

I get up and make my way to the hospital. I ask for "Hayley waldrip." at the reception and the man says "How do you know Hayley?" I hesitate and then finally say "she is my mum. Look im eighteen so im oldenough to see her on my own." Once mum was in a car crahs because she was drunk and i got to the hospital and they wouldnt let me see her without accompanied adult because i was only fifteen. The woman leads me to her room where doctors are cleaning her up and bandaging her womds. "Can someone tell me what has happened to her?" The doctor says "Your mum has been involved in a fight of some sort and we belive she has been sleeping rough." I feel so guilty. She was probably fighting for food and wormth or she might of got on the wrong side of people. he takes the covers of, of her and says. "She has some internal bleeding from her stomach where she has been punched and kicked. This is much badder for her as she has had a c-section in the past and i think its punched through some old scar tissue." I think over what he has just said and i say "But i was pushed out. She diddnt have a c-section for me." The man looks like he is in a sicky situation. "Um well i dont know how to say this but your mum has had a baby in the past. I looked back at her file and it was exactley Twenty years ago. She had a daughter." I then ask. "Did the baby die?" The doctor shakes his head and says "No she is perfectky alive im not sure maybe this is something you need to talk to your mum about."

I let the doctor get on with sorting out mum and i sit on the lonley chair in her room and i call dad. "Baby where are you?" I pause and say "Im at the hospital with mum. Shes in a coma at the moment. She was involved in a fight and she has been sleeping homless. Its all my fault." I start crying again. "No jessica it isnt your fault your mum chose to treat you like she did." I then ask the question. "Did you have a baby before me?" He sounds confused. "I dont know what you mean?" I laugh sarcastically and say "I found out she had a c-section and i know she diddnt have it with me so i asked the doctor and he said she had a daughter twenty years ago i asumed she lost it and diddnt bother telling me but he assures me she is pretty much alive and it is somethiing i should talk to you and mum about so you going to tell me the truth?" He pauses and says. "Maybe we should talk about this in person me and callettee will come down to the hospital and me and you can have a proper chat there and im sorry we diddnt tell you."

As they arrive to the hospital callettee stays in the room with mum while we go to the family room to talk. "So tell me the truth. You and mum had a daughter before me and she diddnt die and she isnt living with us because i knew nothig about her so what did you do with her?" He looks at me and says "I promise you we diddnt put her up for adoption i can tell you that. But she was a mistake and well we were young and stupid so your nan took care of her and she lives with her now and she has had a good life. Lily knows who me and hayley are we see her sometimes and she gets it. But we diddnt want to tell her about you." The gult. "You diddnt tell her about me because she will figure it out that i am two years younger than her and you kept me. So convientley two years later you were ready. She would of only been two and you could of looked after her." He starts to cry. "I know what you are trying to say. But you are here and lily is here." I wanted to meet lily. "Its okay dad i get it i do. I know you and mum had to do the right thing for you at the time. Im sorry for being horrible and angry. I just wish you both told me so i could of got to know her years ago. And if mum diddnt want her then she diddnt want me. She said it loads to me when i was a child was it true." He shakes his head. "we wanted you and we wanted lily. But when we found out we had you we wanted to have a fresh start and taking on lily as well wouldnt of been the fresh start we wanted. It sound horrible. you had the worst upbringing it probably would of been better of for you as well to go to your nan but i diddnt want that." Dad stopped mum getting rid of me. "So mum never wanted us. Mum never wanted me and she never wanted lily." He holds his hand out and says "No that's completely wrong. She loved you both. We both did. But we diddnt have our own flat when your mum fell pregnant with lily and then when she fell pregnant with you we had a flat, jobs we had our life set up and lily has always been in a good place. We wanted you both but it was weather we could give the life andvwe couldn't to her but we could to you." It seems horrible they wanted me and not my sister but I guess they did the right thing for her then and the right thing for me then. "I get what you're saying dad and I know that you did it for the right reason. Mum is going to hate that I know. But I don't want her to know I know yet. I just want her to get better. It's my fault she is here." I get up and dad says "don't blame yourself she chose to treat you like shit. You did the right thing by chucking her out. I know it's lead her here but she might be sober because of what you done. That's a good thing."