Click clack went the sound of her tennis as she approached me , I couldn't help but smile as she came face to face me there standing in front of me was my peace despite being 4 years older than me she really made living easier everything was perfect or so it seem , it's been a year since I ran away and started a new life I was now 16 with a whole new identity living in a new city with new friends I was happy but for some reason I couldn't let go of the hurt , betrayal and pain from my past I still cry myself to sleep every night if it wasn't my best friend Robin I would of killed myself already, she was the only one who knew everything about me .
I was snapped out of my thoughts by my gf kissing me , I automatically smiled and gave her the biggest hug . You ready she said while walking to the car , I couldnt stop myself from feeling a little guilty here this girl was loving me with everything in me , and I was keeping stuff from her lying to her making up excuses for why am crying and why I don't want to have sex with her even after dating her for 10 months .But how could I come clean to her how could she love me how could anyone love me after what I been through. I hated myself I was so disgusted by my body but most of all I was broken .I sighed and got in the car as she started the car up , We drove in silence all the way home . When we got inside she notice I was quiet and started asking me what was wrong I looked at her and smile and told her nothing was wrong I couldn't bring myself to let her inside my walls , she cooked dinner and I stayed in the room doing homework until dinner was done after that we ate and went to bed .
