The razor felt so good as it glided along my skin cutting deep into my flesh. My smile increased with every drop of blood ,it was everything i have imagined and better it made me feel so alive as it pulled me closer to death , Every cut had a story behind it every blood droplet was a reminder that everything i was going through was coming to an end and in that moment i was completely happy I smiled a real smile not the fake smile everyone else saw.i could feel my body bevoming weaker with every blood droplet, Death felt so good .
But that came to an end as i heard my father scream my name "jean " and at that moment reality hit me i quickly put on a hoodie n mopped up the blood. "Coming " i screamed back as i hurried through the hallway to his room in fear . I looked at him in disgust and fear as he smiled at me with that same smile that invading my dreams and tormented me, "come closer princess ".....he said i walked quickly to the bed "lay down he commanded" i did what he said I layed there and watch my father take of my pants and raped me this isnt the first time its been going on for years now you would think by now i would be used to it. But I wasnt everytime it happened felt liked the first day.
By the time he was done I felt dead i dont know if it was all the blood i was losing or having my father on top of me . I slowly got up and crawl to my room with tears in my eyes i sat on my room floor and did the one thing that eased my pain and made me happy i continued cutting , the last thing I heard before i black out was "POW POW"
