Secret Life

Honesty

Hailee's POV

I had woken up to the sound of a blaring alarm
ringing through my ears. Luckily enough I managed to shut it off without yn waking up. God she looks so beautiful when she sleeps. Wait scratch that, she always looks beautiful. It took me a minute to realise that she has her arm wrapped around my waist and her face buried into my shoulder. I'm not complaining in any way, in fact it makes me happy. Another hour passes before yn starts to stir awake in my arms. When she opens her eyes slowly and realises how she is completely wrapped around me, she sits up quickly. "Oh my god I'm so sorry Haiz I didn't mean to fall asleep on you" she blurts out. I place my hand on top of hers. "Hey it's okay don't stress about it" I reassured her. She smiles softly at me and as if we are back to when she first got here yesterday, we locked eyes for a brief moment before my brother knocks on the door way louder than he needed to.

"Haiz get up I went out and got breakfast" He shouts through the door. "Ooh breakfast" yn says and she jolts up and runs towards the door, opening it and running straight into griffin who was now laughing uncontrollably. "I'll be downstairs" he tells us before closing the door. I laugh at her eagerness whilst standing before she runs towards me and starts tackling me back down making us fall onto the bed. "Something funny Steinfeld?" She questions. I know she is joking but in her voice there is a tint of seriousness "Nope not at all." I say swallowing away my nerves. "Do I make you nervous Haiz?" She says jokingly. Honestly, yes. Yes she does. But she must've figured it out during the silence I was thinking in. "Good to know" yn says with a hint of satisfaction. She knows she makes me nervous.

Y/n's Pov

I know I make her nervous, the silence and her facial expression says it all. For what feels like the 100th time in the past 24 hours. We catch each other staring again, her laying down on the bed and me sitting on top of her after our little play fight. In my defence she started it. She sits up slightly so we are an inch away from each other. I catch myself going from her eyes to her lips as i lean in closer breaking the gap between us. After I realise what I did, I quickly pull away before standing up. "Oh my god why did I do that I'm so sorry Haiz you probably hate me right now what was i thinking!" I say all in one breath whilst i have my hands on my head, stressing about what just happened. I stood there with my feet fixed to the floor not knowing what to do. Even though I wasn't facing her I could feel her presence behind me. "Yn..."

Hailee's POV
"Yn..." I say in a calm voice hoping she would turn around. "God I'm so stupid" I hear her mumble. I move around her so I'm facing her before taking her hands into mine. "No don't say that you're not stupid" I try to reassure her but I don't know if it's working. I bring one of my hands to her face, gently lifting her chin to look at me. I take a few seconds to think about what I'm going to say, do I be honest with her? I guess I need to right? "Come on let's sit down for a minute" I say as I walk towards the bed still holding her hand. We both sit down and I decide to speak first, not sure if she wants to sat anything at all. "Why do you think you're stupid?" I ask. "I don't know maybe because I just kissed you when you probably don't even like me so you're going to let me go and leave me" She says with her voice slightly raised. Before I could say anything I hear a knock at the door" I look at yn for approval and she gives me a small nod. "Come in!" I shout "Is everything okay Haiz? I- oh sorry I didn't know you had someone over. Are you alright?" My mom asks. I give her a small nod that tells her it's all okay but to give me a few minutes. After she closes the door I turn back to face yn. "Okay back to where we were, I'm not going anywhere I promise and who says I don't like you?" I say. She looks up at me as I wipe the tears away from her eyes. "That's the problem, you like me. You don't love me, at least not the way that I love you and-" Is all she manages to get out before I cut her off with a kiss. She was hesitant at first but eventually leaned into it. "Look yn... I don't know who told you that I didn't love you but I do okay? I really do, and I know it's fast because we literally met like the other day but when I'm around you it's like you fill the hole in my heart I never knew I had." I say to her, holding her hand in mine. A small yet warm smile spreads across her face as she looks at me. "So what now?" She asks me. "How about we take it slow? We don't make anything official, at least for now and see how things go. If they do, then we will sit and talk about it" I tell her. "And if they don't?" She says. "I doubt that it would happen" I say as I stand up and open my arms for her. She stands up just after me and wraps her arms around my waist as I gently rub her back. "Shall we go an get some breakfast?" I ask her. "Yes please I'm starving" She tells me. Just as I place my hand on the door handle, yn stops me. "Haiz wait..." she says sounding worried. "What's wrong?" I take both her hands into mine reassuring her that I'm here for her. She places a gentle kiss to my lips before pulling away again. "Now we can go get breakfast" she laughs.

Authors Note: What are we thinking so far? And will it all go smoothly? I guess you will have to wait. Make sure to eat, sleep and drink plenty whilst I write the next chapter 🫶🏻