Pain of love

The flight

I walked towards the bag checks and my heart started racing all my thoughts drowning me of my own fears I asked myself why am I doing this? Do I really love him this much? Do I trust him?

"Mia come on it's our turn"
His voice. an angelic tune.
Yeah I'm coming Aid
*we both passed security and did the bag checks perfectly fine*
Aidan now we are here can you please buy me the one direction 'one moment' perfume pleaseeeee
"Oh god ur always on about that"
Please Aidan I'm begging you
"Alright fine but I'll buy it when we land in England"
You know what that is fine
*hours had passed just us waiting to board our flight we had eaten and even played games in the jackpot area. But nothing stoped. The thoughts were still there. Am I making a mistake?*
"Finally we can board cmon Mia have you got all your things?"
Yeah it's all good lets go
*we had boarded and we were just about to take off*
Oh god I said to myself what am I doing
"Hmm. Are you alright Mia why is your leg shaking"
I'm just a little nervous that's all
"It's alright. Here I'll hold ur hand"
I thought to myself maybe it's alright maybe I'm making a good decision I wished upon a shooting star it'll be alright
*we were just landing and Aidan had been asleep the past few hours as these thoughts passed over my head. His head fell onto my shoulder, I couldn't sleep I was worried I can't do this Aidan.*
"Mia... it's alright I got you and I promise I won't do anything to hurt you I love you ok?
And I promise I always will"
I stayed silent while we landed my hand was still locked into his but no words as we left I got my things and walk away. Hands locked.
"My friend Jaden is coming to get us"
K
"Oh cmon don't do this did u leave ur love for me in New York"
Bahahhaha I can't believe you would think that I still love you lmao.
He kissed me. I felt.... I felt ok