Tales of a Stupid

Tale of my first time

In this school I'm studying at we had bedrooms for the students to sleep in. I fancied this chubby girl. She had the same age and we were in the same classroom so, even though I was a bit introverted and I had lots of trust issues though she made me feel special.

I would actually say she was my first ever love?

We started talking and she pulled me to her friends group. Our classroom had only 8 students and there was this group of 4 friends where she was so at that point I had 4 friends?

We started things calmly and I never pushed her to do anything she didn't liked though I the way she made me felt, I became really attatched to her therefor I wanted to share everything with her. My good moments and bad ones. I wanted to spend time with her as much as I could.

Our first time we went to this place where a guy from our school and 2 bedrooms we could use.

I'll always remember her warmth against my body. As she got naked my thought process was all fuzzy. I couldn't hold myself. The primal urge that drives all species to reproduce was now taking over me. We did it and all that was crossing my mind was that I wanted to make her feel good. I wanted to please her. We were at it for around half an hour. We were both unexperienced therefor we kept the rythem kinda awkwardly as it was both our first time.

You know how it ended?

I was living a fairy tale. Everything was good. Perfect actually but I was alone on that thought.

A month after we started dating she complained that I was too clingy and that she wanted some space. I tried to give her said space but still it wasn't good enough.

By the end, the way I loved her, the intensity of my own feelings was what separeted us.

Lesson learned. Never give your everything on a relationship.