Let Me Clarify (One Shot)

Let Me Clarify

Regina Vanguardia never EVER chased someone in her entire life. She's used to being the one who's chased after. Kaliwa't kanan ang manliligaw, mapababae o lalake man ay hinahangaan at nagkakagusto sa kanya. She's confident enough, she knows she basically has it all; looks, power, money, and have we mentioned LOOKS?

So yes, she has a lot to be proud of and she knows she can easily get what and WHO she wants.

Until she met Narda Custodio.

It was a foreign feeling for her, the way her whole being's taken by the other girl has left her quite shaken. She never experienced all these emotions that the girl has brought out of her. She never even imagined na may taong makakapagpadama sa kanya ng mga bagay na nararamdaman nya ngayon. She never experienced the sweaty palms, the longing, the yearning for another person's presence so bad and the beating of heart that threatens to jump out of her chest whenever she sees or even just think of the other girl.

So yes, for the first time in her entire life, Regina Vanguardia is experiencing what she thinks is an unrequited love. She actually wants someone who seems out of reach.

But of course, at the end of the day, she's still a Vanguardia and Vanguardias don't give up without a fight. So no, she's not just gonna stand back and let opportunities go without trying.

And that's exactly what she's been doing for the past couple of weeks, maybe more than a month now. She's been trying to lowkey show Narda how she feels, giving hint after hint. Naaya nya na ito sa mga fancy restaurants na lagi nyang pinapagoogle kay Ali for dinner a couple of times, pinupuntahan nya rin ito sa sariling desk to bring her lunch, she has basically complimented every single part of Narda's body (that is still appropriate...), minsan ay lantaran na nya itong nilalandi pero for some reason, it just always flew over Narda's head. Pati belt nga ni Narda ay nacompliment nya na, hindi pa ba halata na nanlalandi sya? Hindi na sure si Regina if ganun ba talaga ka oblivious si Narda o sadyang nagmamaangmaangan lang ito dahil hindi sya nito gusto.

She's done everything she could, except of course, telling Narda directly about her feelings. Sa dami ba naman ng ideang pumasok sa isip nya, hindi nya inexpect na need nya pang umamin ng diretso dito. She honestly thought na magwowork ang step 12 nya which is ang pagtitig sa mga mata nito while gently holding her cheek. Pero wala pa rin talaga.

Pero ayun na nga, everything's been done but apparently not much has been said. And Regina's tired of overthinking, of what ifs, of yearning, pining and hoping. Kaya with a confidence that she forced upon herself and determination to actually go with her final plan, she decided that this is the day that she's gonna confess her feelings to her best friend. Wala nang padaluy-dalot at diretsahan. She knows na her friendship with Narda is solid enough na if the girl rejects her feelings, kaya nilang lampasan ang awkwardness.

"you can do this, Vanguardia" Regina mutters to herself.

They're currently hanging out inside her office after a long day's work. Sitting on her couch in a comfortable silence while Narda's hand is holding hers, thumb gently caressing the inside of her palm.

"ano yun?" Narda asked, apparently her self peptalk didn't go unnoticed and she quietly cursed herself.

"n-nothing"

Narda's brows scrunched with an amused smile on her face, "wala? ano kinakausap mo lang sarili mo?" natatawa nitong pang-aasar.

Regina tries to glare at her, it would've worked if there isn't a fond sparkle in her eyes as she looks at the other woman. "ano naman? they said it's healthy to talk to yourself every once in a while."

"yeah," the shorter girl nods, then added with a chuckle, "kung mag-isa ka lang at walang kasama na makakarinig sa'yo."

Regina pulled her hand away from the other girl and smacked her arm, "meanie"