paper bouquet

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Hey, it's been a while now...   

What's up?

I hope Liy didn't give you too much trouble.

I hope you're doing well.

Me? I've had better days.

There are lumps in my throat every day and I'm having trouble choking them out- much less swallowing them.

I've been having coughing fits and it's getting harder to sleep at night.

I don't have the energy to do anything anymore, actually.

It could be the effect of wanting you to be here with me.

I've been feeling lonely ever since you were gone.

I'm still angry about iance, but those feelings faded away after some time.

I'm trusting someone else to deliver this to you, okay?

I hope this message will reach you one day.

I hope we can go back to playing Rock-Paper-Scissors again.

If you don't see me in the TPOT grounds, don't be worried.

It's okay. I'll be there with you always.

Even if you don't see me.

We're best friends, of course!

I'll try my best not to leave you alone.

I don't want you to feel the same way I did..

This feels so stupid and cheesy.

I hesitate and stare at the sentences that were written with black ink.

I had tried my best not to cough on the paper.

Blood would splatter all over and it would make Stapy more worried...

I don't want to worry him.

He's going to feel so scared...

He's never going to forgive whoever or whatever made me sick..

But he doesn't know...

He's not aware that I did this to myself.

My feelings for him seemed to have grown ever since he had left, and suddenly this started to happen.

I missed him so much- we've been friends since we were kids- and...

I can't stand his absence.

It's painful.

It's like... I'm being eaten from the inside by my longing for him.

Since when have I become so dependent on him?!

I thought... I thought we were only best friends.

I thought that best friends would only spend time with each other, share pains with each other, have fun with each other...

Why did it suddenly grow into this?

Why now?

Why didn't this happen before he disappeared?

I could've told him sooner.

Then he would tell me how he truly felt about me, if I was only his best friend and his love belonged to someone else..

I appreciate him dearly.

And I know how much I mean to him too.

I don't want to imagine how depressed or angry he would become once he finds out that I'm on the brink of death.

I think I should rewrite my letter....

..........

Hey, what's up?

I hope you're doing well!

I missed you a lot!

When you're back, we should play Rock-Paper-Scissors again,
with Marker of course!

Speaking of Marker, he's doing fine.

Our other teammates are doing okay too.

We're currently spectating the BFB people right now.

I really wish Four let you guys out...

I hope to see you soon!

.........

There! This sounds a lot more optimistic.

There's no way he would worry.