If Her Minds Not Dark Enough

Chapter 1

Raelyns POV

At the end of the school day, my mind is rattling. I don't remember anything a learned today, it was pointless. With being pointless I think about how everyday is pointless and life is hard.

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When I got home I ran to my room just sitting there crying. I close my eyes and try to imagine when I was happy without any care in the world and that just made the tears stream down my face more. I wish I was a little kid again able to do things and not get ignored and make friends, easily. Life is overwhelming and honestly I can't really handle it. It hurts to think about it. My door slowly creeps open opens and I look up.

"Oh god Harley, you scared the hell out of me!" I exclaimed, giving my brother a dirty look and a bitchy smirk. Although I'm kind of glad because he got me out of my thoughts. Which at the time was probably the best because I was about to breakdown and have a full blow panic attack.

"What were you doing, it looks and sounded like you were crying?" He asked sounding pretty concerned.
Which to me wasn't that uncommon because many siblings our age hate each other but we have a good "relationship" .

I told him "I was thinking about the past when things were easier and life was just a what if and waiting for the hours to pass." I sort of half regreted opening up like that to my brother because I have a feeling he might want to tell mom. We both know it won't end well even of it doesn't seem like she ever cares anymore.

"Oh, want me to keep this a secret and not tell mom and just talk with me? You know I'll listen and I wouldn't ever dare to judge you." He said with a sort of sad tone in his voice. The way he said it made me feel guilty like I was doing something wrong.

I sighed in relief that he brought up the whole mom thing.

"I would kind of like that, as long you don't tell mom though!" I said quickly, and I think I sounded nervous when I really wasnt nervous. He closed my door and sat across from me like it was awkward to be sitting in my room.

"Its not that weird, you've sat in here before." I almost yelled. Not to mention were close in age, he just graduated high school and is 18 and I'm a senior 17 going on 18 so were really close in age.

Some people think it's weird but my brother and I honestly won't do anything to upset the other. We were close and I liked having a big brother by my side and I think he liked having a little sister to talk to about things too.

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Hey guys, I'm pretty new on here and honestly don't know if this is any good. I'm not a good writer, well I don't think so and I as nervous to post this. Personally I'm not this age but I was depressed once and I'm good now and I decided to use some "etxpirience" to try and write I book!! Thanks or reading, Ily!

-Abi:)