I wake up the next day and think "shit". Just another start to an already shitty day just great! Now you know how my mornings begin. I decided not to get up, I didn't feel like it and if I had my way I wouldn't ever get up and go to school. Well actually just get rid of the for school, I meant just that waking up at all part.
Although I don't like my mom I was sure I didn't want to go to school. I keep the talking part of this minimal. I was annoyed now just thinking of my mom. Now that these bitch session I expect to happen later is done I roll back over and fall back asleep.
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When I finally roll back out of bed I am about to fall over, my legs weren't functionable at all. I fell back onto my bed and looked at the time, it was already 11:30! My mom was gone and I was home alone! I got up whsn my legs felt okay again and went into my bathroom. I brushed my teeth and washed my face, and other things.
Those other things are look at myself and wish I was pretty, with I was skinny, and wish I wasnt a screw up. I knew it wasnt ever going to be true. But I tried I kept meals to pretty much three small bites and I was always exercising. I was already down in the dumps so I took my "happy pill" as my mom calls it. It doesn't make me happy though it makes me even more depressed.
I took out my scale hoping I was skinny eniught already besides the fact I knew i wasn't. I looked down and about died from how much myw weight is, its embarrassing. Im so fat compared to every girl at my school. They always call me names and pick on me. I weight 101 pounds. I hate myself. I need to loose weight! I'm to fat!
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If Her Minds Not Dark Enough
De TodoA young girl named Raelyn battles through ups and downs. Going through life day by day and counting down until the day she'll die. Past and present. Eventually she find's meaning, hope and love in all the right ways. She realizes life isn't really t...
