IN THIS LIFE OR ANOTHER

2.The Young Idol

WY pov

It is not easy to be an idol at this age, you have a reputation and a public face to maintain. Sometimes I just want to leave all this fame behind, but once you gain all the fame, it becomes addiction. You cannot just leave all this behind. I'm only 20 and sometimes it all feels like a dream, many around my age still depends on their parents, going to college for study, having friends and living a decent life. Sometimes I envy them, I wish I could live like a normal human being. It's not like I am not happy, it's just that sometimes I can't express my real emotion. "Everything comes with a price", to gain something you need to loose one thing or another. It's just different from person to person. It's not like I don't like my profession, I enjoy my work and I am very passionate about it. I love my fans to, I just don't like the crazy stalkers and the PAPARAZZI  always creating havoc and trying to drag in some kind of scandals. Once I was caught up in a scandal about being rude to the fans. It was because of Straightforwardness
. If I don't like something I will tell right away, for that I got a lot of criticism, but no one likes to get bugged on. I want to rebel but it will affect my family's reputation along with mine.

"YiBo, get ready. You are up next"

I was brought back to reality by my managers voice. He is not only my manager, he is like a brother to me. I don't have any sibling, I'm the only child of my parents but he treats me as his younger brother and I also treat him as my elder brother.

"Yes.Kuan ge, I am ready"I said. He is the only one with whom I can be myself without being judged.

" Tell me what it is. What's bothering you? " He asked.

"There's nothing, ge".

" You think you can lie to me. You know you can tell me, right?" He asked again.

"You really know me well, ha. Ge, I want to go back to China. I want to be a full time racer, being a idol is great but racing is my dream and I want to pursue my dream" I said without holding back.

"Yibo, I know you but it's not only about you, you have a huge fandom, and they are looking up to you, do you want to disappoint them." He said with a sad tone.

"But, again I am not against your dreams. You know I will support you, whatever your decision is but choose wisely" He added. He held my hands and squeezed it for reassurance. He smiled at me and he made a hand gesture that he will be waiting for me. And I just nod with a smile.

"Wang Yibo, your performance starts in 10 min. Take your position. "

The announcement came and I ran towards backstage. And took my position.

"Yibo, Ready? " The crew asked.

"Yes"

"Okay. Yibo, is ready, change the stage theme." 

"Done. Stage is ready. "

"Okay. Yibo, timer is set. Your entry is in 10 sec, go on. All the best."

" All the best. " Kuan ge said with a smile.

"Thanks, ge."

In next 10 sec I was standing in front of huge crowd. Fans are chanting my name,.... "YiBo..... YiBo..... YiBo... "
This feeling is indescribable, I already forgot the worry, stress and sadness I was having few minutes ago. I want to give my 100% to this performance, for my fans I want to be their IDOL whom they can look up to and get inspired to achieve their dreams. I was living my dream, suddenly I felt a pang in my heart, like someone grabbed it and squeezed it. The pain is unbearable, I can't breathe and my head started spinning and in next second  everything went blank in front of my eyes.