LET ME LOVE YOU

chap 1

I was sitting there holding that red flower tears were continuously rolling down my cheeks I was just thinking about one thing and the question that was playing in my mind was why and I don't even remember when I fell asleep
Flashback
One day when I woke up I still felt my eyes heavy and teary I always cry before sleeping ughh I stood up and walked slowly inside the washroom after throwing the water on my face for a few minutes I looked up at myself in the mirror I plastered a smile on my face and then came out wiping my face with a towel and found Anu on my bed ughh Ohkay she had set the bedsheet still I don't like anyone on my bed
Me- Anu what are you doing here you know that I don't like anyone touching my bed or anything else in my room
Anu- diii why are you always angry or shouting why don't you enjoy your life
(The girl is Avneet)
Avu- can you plz keep quiet I don't want to listen to anything just get lost
I shouted oh no my heart ughhh
Anu- it's okay calm down diii I'm I'm going just calm down
I nodded taking deep breaths I sat on the bed whispering soothing words to calm myself down after a few minutes I was feeling normal I went out after getting Fresh mom and dad were on the table waiting for me
Avu- good morning
I greeted with a smile plastered on my face and sat there they greeted me back
Avu- I'm sorry Anu for shouting in the morning I was just umm I don't know I just was angry without any reason
Anu- it's okay dii completely fine you alright now
Sonia- what happened to her
Aman- what happened princess
Avu- I'm fine mom dad I just found myself breathing heavily nothing else
Aman- you alright now
I just nodded and got an unsatisfied nod back from them
Aman- I was saying that my best friends son is coming here for a few days to live with us he is going to have some work here in the city for a few days he was going to stay at a hotel but I thought why when we're having a house here he is like a son to me so good
Wowwww now this was remaining
Sonia- when is he coming
Aman- today in evening take care of him provide him whatever he needs he should feel like home here
Mom and Anu just nodded ohk nice now I would have to give a nod too so I finally gave a bored nod while rolling my eyes which wasn't noticed except for my chimpanzee sis you know what I just love to play piano and sing too if I'm well I'm gifted with a beautiful voice I write lyrics full of my feelings which are mostly painful I completed my breakfast and stood up to go back to my room but before that I helped mom to clean the table I took some dishes and settled them in the dishwasher mom was standing with me and I was keeping the dishes
Sonia- Avneet beta
Avu- hmm
Sonia- tomorrow we'll collect your reports and you're having an appointment with Dr Gupta
I looked up at her took a deep breath and said
Avu- mom go it's just the reports I'll not come with you
Sonia- but beta..
I cut her in the middle
Avu- mom plz I don't want to it's just the reports I'll go for the checkup next week
She sighed and nodded I
Avu- I'm going to my room don't let Anu disturb me plz
Sonia- ohk but do spend sometime with her she needs you she wants her elder sister to be like sisters
Avu- this is for her good only I don't want her to be attached or dependable on me she'll have to be her without me too mom
Sonia- but..
Avu- I want some rest
I cut her in the middle and went to my room closed the door and opened my little drawer and my secret lover was there my dairy it's my everything I took my dairy out and wrote many things tears were continuously rolling down my cheeks I was biting my lower lip some times while writing few things you wanna know what I wrote so listen I wrote
My dear jenny ( I have named my diary as Jennifer and Jenny is her nickname)
Today again my heart was thrashing inside me my lungs were begging for air for a few minutes I calmed myself and went down mom and dad were worried Anu wants a sister and I love her the most but I don't want her to be dependent on me it'll be hard for her to move on in the future mom wants me to go for an appointment but I don't want to I'm afraid my reports are coming tomorrow the doctor would tell my issue to mom tomorrow and i know it'll be worse I love you jenny that I'm able to speak my heart out to you I love you so much and you know what dad gave a fucking good news his best friends son is coming I want privacy and that person will be in my house more than a week I don't get why dad gives free advices to people well leave all that I have to go i have wrote a new lyrics I'm trying to sing that see you again.
Love you
Your Avi.

Yeah so that was my chat with Jenny I went towards the balcony my balcony it's mine attached to my room my second favorite and peaceful place I slid the large glass door which is mostly like a window ohk was a joke yeah so I slid it and sat on the stool of my piano I started playing it all of my feelings come out through it and then I started to sing a song.
After singing I sat on the swing with my novel I was reading recently I continued reading smiling lost in the imaginary world and I didn't even noticed that I completed half of it ohk it was super interesting but this is too much I almost read 162 pages of this book and I'm damn sure I would have completed 170+ plus but again Anu disturbed I told mumma to stop her  but...ohk so let's spend sometime with her I opened the door an she came inside
Anu- can I sit in your bed
She said with a cute voice and puppy eyes that made me laugh at her question and the way I nodded still laughing she jumped on the bed with a giggle
Avu- but don't mess it up
Anu- I won't
She promised and I sat beside her and she hugged me which was so comforting I hugged her back after a while we both pulled back and this was the first time I was letting her be like younger siblings I want her to enjoy her life it was a little awkward we were silent looking at each other and then here and there waiting for the other to speak finally she broke the silence
Anu- di can I ask you a question
Avu- sure
I said as I crawled beside her half laying half sitting with the support of headboard. I never sit so close to anyone.
Anu- do you love me?
I felt a pang in my heart why is she thinking that I do I love her the most she is my life but what's the reason she is thinking all this...
So that's it this is my one shot for vote and comment if you like it...