The bodyguard

Part 29

The feeling of a heart break over a boyfriend hurts. A feeling of loosing a pet stings. But this. I cant describe how much this has shattered my heart. When i heard the words that William said "gran has stopped breathing" I'm sure i stopped breathing. Robert was trying to calm me down as i was hysterical and Paul was speaking to william from as far as i can remember. At this point in time robert must of been doing over 100mph to get to the palace. When we arrive there paparazzi and all sorts of people were there but I didn't care. I rushed out of the car and into the palace where all the family were stood.

"Where is she? What's happening? Is she okay?" I say panicked.

"Ella. None of us can go into see her. The doctors are with her" harry says wiping his tears.

"No. I shouldn't have left her. It cant be true. The nurse said a few days not a few hours. No no no" i cry.

Robert wraps an arm around me and i sob into his chest. I do calm down as his touch calms anyone down but then my heart rate rose again as i hear her door open. A man walks out in paramedic uniform and through the door we see loads of paramedics

"Im sorry. We have tried everything. There isn't much else we can do" he says.

I hear cries from all the family but i rip out of Roberts hold and i rush through the door. Gran was lying there lifeless and i sob even harder. I rush to the side of her and hold her hand and it was freezing. Her face and everything was still. She looked Grey at the face. It wasn't nice to look at.

"Please. If you can hear me. Come back. Please" i whisper.

"Im so sorry your highness. She has passed" a lady says.

I sob harder and harder and my heart wasn't even there anymore. This is no way a princess should act. I shouldn't have left her. I should of stayed. All them things she said to me. She knew she was going. The guilt. I look at her face one last time before i rush out of the room. Everyone was still stood where they were standing and i could hear them faintly calling my name. I didn't stop i rushed up the stairs and into my bedroom where buddy was laying on my bed.

I fall to my knees and i scream and sob. Why. The guilt of me not being here. The guilt of leaving her when i should of been with her. My whole body was shaking. Buddy waggled his tail and he came up to me. I stand up and walk to the bed and i cry into my pillow. With buddy following again. He licks my arm once and lays next to me. I wrap my arm around him and the tears just wouldn't stop.

I lay there for hours. God knows how many as I didn't check the time. I laid there crying. My eyes were hurting. My head was pounding. I felt sick to the stomach. Buddy hasn't moved from me either which made me think the worst that this is what i should of been like to gran.

I hear the door open and i dread to think who it was. I don't want to talk to anyone. I cant. I don't think my voice box would let me without breaking down again. The bed sheets next to me lifts up and someone pulls me in to them. I knew who it was i could tell by the hand and the way he hugged.

"Have some sleep. Im here with you" Robert whispers.

"Its my fault" i crack.

"No princess its not" he says.

"It is. I shouldn't have gone. I should of stayed by her. None of this would of happened. If i had seen the monitor i would of called someone straight away" i cry again.

"Her nurse was with her the whole time. As soon as it went off she tried everything. Please princess don't blame yourself" he says.

"I knew it was going to be soon i would have to leave her go but not this soon. My heart is gone. Now i have the worry about being queen. All the pressure is all on me" i say pulling the blankets up to cuddle.

"All of us are here for you. Everyone is really upset. The poor kids they don't know what to do. Im worried mostly about you. Don't put stress on yourself. Don't even think about being queen. Your gran is in a safe place. She is out of her misery and she will always be looking down on you proud" he says kissing the top of my head.

The dog wines and he scratches on my balcony door.

"Can you let him out. He is pretty good he comes back when he is done" i say.

Robert nods and he opens the door and comes back into bed.

"Do you want anything to eat?" He asks.

"I feel sick" i say.

"Eating something will do you good. Everyone would love to see you too" he says.

"How can i see them? I will just cry" i say forming my tears again.

"Its natural to cry. They are all upset themselves come on princess" he says.

I agree with him so i climb out of bed. I lock the door as buddy comes in and i walk hand in hand with Robert as soon as i seen everyone my heart broke again. I cried with them all. Hugged them all and told them i was sorry. Of course they all god a little mad that i was blaming myself. I ate the pizza that was left over and went back upstairs and cried again. I had a shower and cried. I dried my hair while crying. I climbed into bed with buddy and cried. I didn't know i had that many tears in my body to cry.

Robert comes back and i lay on his chest and guess what. I cried. He smoothed my hair.

"Shh. Close your eyes and try to sleep" he whispers.

I close my eyes and i listen to his heartbeat. It was relaxing but i was still crying. He smoothed my hair and kissed the top of my head and i still cried. This was going to be a long night for all of us in Buckingham palace.