A Writer's Experience (sakuatsu story)

Chapter 5: Sooner or later

It's been two and a half months since Kiyoomi started hanging out with Atsumu and his friend.

And as said, he's most definitely in love with Atsumu.

Well, he isn't that deep into the hole of love – Of being in love with Miya Atsumu.

But, if he's honest, he's still deep. So deep.

The way his heart beats so fast is -- somewhat -- concerning; The way there's some sort of feeling of butterflies in his stomach whenever Atsumu smiles at him; The way he just loves the idea of having Atsumu as his own and having a family together..

Maybe he is that deep rethinking the last sentence.... Not the point right now!

He admits that he's very -- deeply -- in love with Atsumu. It's at the point where he can't get out of it.

Who could blame him though?

Atsumu always had fan girls coming to him from left to right back at school. Calling him handsome, hot, cute, and etc.

So it shouldn't be surprising that he fell in love with him... but then it actually is.

Well that's what he learned after telling Iwaizumi, The boyfriend of Atsumu's best friend, and also, now, the only person who knows about Kiyoomi's crush about Atsumu.

"Wait- So you actually have a crush on Atsumu?" "Yes...? Is that so hard to believe?" "Kinda!"

Unbelievable.

"How so?" "Well, one thing for sure, you're a germaphobe which means no touchy shit and now ya got a crush on the person who loves and does touchy shit?"

"You're being dramatic Iwa." "No. I'm not." "Whatever. Kinda regret telling you now"

"Be happy it's me and not anyone else cause they'll probably tell someone else." It was true.

He needed someone to talk to about his feelings and emotions -- someone who's not Atsumu. It was the literal reason why he chose Iwaizumi to talk about his feelings. Iwaizumi knew how to keep a secret unlike most people. Besides, Iwaizumi was like a best friend to him.

"Whatever. So what are you gonna do about this?" "I don't really know... It's not like I can confess to him, I'll probably get rejected like all his fangirls" Iwaizumi rubs the back of his neck, "Eh... Kinda doubt it to be honest"

"Yeah right... You're his friend. You know full well how many people he's rejected." "Yeah yeah. So what? You just aren't gonna tell him your feelings for him? You have to tell him you know." "yeah yeah whatever. Soon maybe"

That wasn't -- At least he promises himself -- a lie. Sooner or later he was gonna tell him whether he was scared to do so or not cause in the end, bottled feelings will just be a lot.

And as a young college student and writer who's already got piles and piles of ideas and problems in his head, it may just be too much.