Made with love and only for me

Dear Children

Oh dear children

so sweet

So kind

So tender

 You cry out tormented sounds of misery. If they cannot save you then how can they save me?

Let us wipe away our tears and prepare us now for an ending

Hold my hands and walk with me

But know I refuse to step the path of infinity

I have promised us all happiness

I have promised us all an end

I have filled my heart with envy knowing I must die for you to live

Dear sweet child

So sweet

So kind

So tender

The sound of your accomplishments curdle on my tongue and scratch me beneath my skin. Repetitiously rehearsing life script time and time again

I am self composed

Dear sweet child 

So sweet

So kind

So tender

So strong

Sweet child of pity 

So bitter

So cruel

I choose you

You a child of beauty, far beyond your years taught by pity 

who thought the angels could pray you through who knew?

I am my child's past and adult being living life like a puppet on strings

Wires  made from the heart's vows of the broken

Open, exposed all anxiously wait to see

I have been composed by a child

I am the creation of a lifeless puppet on tangled  strings.

Oh dearest child of pity tell me now why do you haunt me?

You wreck my brain with the most unthinkable of thoughts

You've come in my dreams

You've robbed me of my sleep and my eyes... you've deprived of light

Dearest child of pity trust me when I claim that we share the same memories

We feel the same things

You've died many years before now 

I'm sorry I've buried you away in the deepest of grounds

where no one could hear you desperately scream 

Oh dear sweet child forgive me

I fought for understanding  and left you behind when I ran away

I,  holding the sword as you withered away 

 I fought for your strength

Alas! you've caught up with me 

no matter how fast I run 

I cannot escape you 

I surrender to you and my most tiresome of feelings and in the mist of all the confusion and pain

Alas you have you found me dear sweet child of pain embrace me we are one in the same