I'm not sure what this is. Or where this is going. But I need to get sh*t out. Not like that, as in stuff that I can't tell anyone because it's unfathomable. Okay, that makes me sound intelligent but I'm not. Really. I'm just a teenage girl. Which means most of the time I'm outspoken and confused. Especially now, you see I have a dilemma in the "young love department". Because I'm small in this big world I take it very seriously and believe that I will marry one of the two people I'm confused over, but I'll probably get to 18 and think back and laugh because I know it was a hilarious mistake. But then I think, if I know that then why do I bother? And thus the never ending circle of teenage girl confusion begins.
So this is where stuff gets deep.
Do you ever feel like you are alone. You could be in the busiest street in London but you feel like you're sat in an empty room. That's me. I don't know what's wrong with me but that's what I feel like. There's days where I just cry for no reason and it's not hormones its just that I want to escape life. Not die. Just, get out of my mind. Out of this world. Away because there's so much stuff thats confusing and asdffghhjloa. Adults always say as a child you're free but they couldn't be more wrong: we have tests, love, hormones, depression, confusion ( I use that word a lot) travel, change and so much more. I don't even know what to feel.
Am I the only one that thinks this? I'm not forcing you but if you want comment if you do to. Please. I'm not expecting much, I'm just a small girl from England but it helps to know I'm not alone. Comment anything you like, well, nothing psychopathic because I'm no use in that area of expertise. Those days are behind me. I bet you think I'm really weird now, its just the way I am and most people agree. Just go with it.
