Don't Dwell on the Past

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I woke up that morning wrapped in blankets and with the smell of bacon in the house. Something must've been burning I thought. I scrambled to my feet to find Marie in the kitchen.

"Oh, hey." She said surprised "Didn't think you'd be up yet."

"Why are you still here?" I asked.

"What do mean, I'm just taking care of you." She said, flipping the bacon.

"But mother nev.." I trailed off.

"What?" She said. "I couldn't hear you."

"Thank you." I said.

"Don't worry, it's the right thing for me to do." She said. "Just go sit down, breakfast will be ready in a few."

"Yes ma'am." I said.

"Your funny." She said while smiling.

Her beautiful teeth showing from under her smile, her lips with a dark lipstick, her hair, tied in a small bun, and her velvet red turtle neck, allowing her breasts to be visible.

I walked and sat at the table. After a few minutes she brought in a steaming hot pile of scrambled eggs, some fresh fruit, and a stack of bacon. We sat and ate. We didn't say a word but we smiled and made eye contact. By the end of it, I offered to clean up.

"No no, it's fine, I'll get it." She said.

"You did all of this for me, the least I can do is clean it up a little." I argued.

"No insist." She said.

NO I SAID I'D DO IT, I'M TRYING TO BE NICE, OKAY?" I shouted.

"Okay, I'm sorry, I didn't know you felt that way." She said.

"I'm sorry for raising my voice." I said.

"Don't worry about it." She said.

I put the dishes in the sink and let the water run over them.

"What time is it?" I shouted.

"11 o'clock. Why?" She shouted back.

"No reason." I said, putting the booze away.

I went back and sat with her on the couch.

"Thank you Marie." I said, before falling into her arms.

"It's okay, we're gonna get you back on track bud." She said.

"I don't want you to leave." I said into her stomach.

"I won't, I'll stay with you." She said as she stroked my hair. "Why don't we watch a movie?" She said.

"Sure, you like horror?" I said.

"Not particularly, but I'm sure you can protect me during the scary parts." She said sarcastically.

"How about Halloween?" I asked, reaching into the vhs box.

"Sure, isn't he the guy with the hockey mask?" She said.

"No, that's Jason. This.. this is Michael Myers." I said, putting the vhs in. "I'll go get some popcorn."

I grabbed the foil dish, and put it on the stove. While it started to pop, I opened the fridge and pulled out some coke and poured us a cup each. I opened the freezer to grab some ice, only to greeted by Ella's face.

"Fuck." I shouted in shock.

"What's wrong?" Shouted Marie.

"I umm dropped some ice." I said.

I put a cubes in each of our drinks and finished cooking the popcorn.

"Here you go." I said, handing her the coke.

"Oh thank you." She said.

I sat the bowl beside me and leaned into her chest.

* * *

As Michael fell off the balcony and the credits rolled I got up and turned to her.

"I sometimes.. have bad thoughts." I said. "Like doing.. bad things."

"That's alright. I have bad thoughts too. I've done those bad things too." she replied, holding my chin.

"You've ki-"

"I've done drugs." she said. "What?"

"Yeah that's what I meant. I used to do weed." I said.

"I'm not talking about weed." she said, running her finger down my chest.

"What are you talking about?" I asked.

"I used to do herion. Back when I was your age, me and my friends would hop parties until we found our fix for the night. But I'm long clean. I do miss it some times." She said.

"Oh. I'm so sorry to hear that." I said blankly.

"It's alright, you're young. These things happen, and you need to watch out." She said, running her fingers through my hair.

"How long have you been-"

"Clean? About 7 years. I try not to think about it, that's when the cravings kick in." She said.

"I'm so sorry." I said.

"Shut up." She replied.

"What?" I asked.

before I could think anymore, she pulled me in and began kissing me. She guided my hands up her turtleneck, whispered in my ear.

"Don't dwell on the past."

* * *

She held me in her arms. My face in her chest. Warm. I didn't want to do it. I didn't want to do it to her. She was different. I wanted to live and die with her.

"I love you." I said. "I know it's early, and you think I'm young and dumb, but I really do."

"That's cute." She laughed. "But yes, I love you too."

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