new family

chapter 2 wheres home?

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mental ward, suicidal thoughts, self harm,

we turn up at the home that Abigail says that I'm staying at. while I was at my mum's house I got clothes a few books and the mpc player and headphones that my mum gave me but that's down my pants because I don't want anyone to know that I have that. the house is big and looks worn down. the yard look's like a dump and there are cars and car parts everywhere. I hope that this is going to be ok. I hope I'm going to be ok. yeah, I will. I can... no, I will be happy here

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I'm tied. I'm really tied. I'm tied of life. I really wish that had worked. I really don't know why didn't try that earlier. like before she died. I really hope one day I can get her medical records so I can see what happened to her. I don't really remember much about it. all I remember is the bang and the rush when she flatlined. then again I don't really remember anything anymore. that much has happened that I don't even know if I'm real "ranboo I'm speaking to you". I look up to see Abagail with a badge on that says guest "Happy birthday ranboo, I know there is not a lot that I can give you to make up for what has been going on in your life or your head but there's this"- she holds out a cupcake that has an 8 on the top in purple icing -" and I do have one more thing to give to you..."- she turns to the doctor that stands by the door of the common room, they nod-" I can take you out of here today, the doctors believe that you're not going to try and hurt your self again... hopefully" the fresh scratches stinging on my forearms could argue differently. but I guess I can try this again. I wonder how long it will take me to land back in this place. 

she grabs my hand and leads me to the exit. most people I feel would be excited to leave this place however I kind of liked it. it was peaceful here. well... if you can get over the screening of a night time. we make it to the checkout and they hand my stuff over in a clear bag. the clothes, well more rags I had on before the cops picked me up and my mp3 player. I can't believe that I've been able to keep that the whole time that I've been in the system. through the six different houses, seven? dose this place count? I'm going to count it. though thee seven houses that I've been through. " gee ranboo they really didn't look after you did they. we will have to get you a fresh set of clothes before we go to your new home". how exciting new clothes. the last house I was in only got new clothes for me to make it seem like I didn't live in the same clothes, you know so that they wouldn't get hate comments. we exit the building and I can see abigails little pink car from across that car park. "so guess what ranboo, the new house you're going to is taking a second boy that same age as you at the same time. he hopes that both your coping ways will help each other heal. his name is Tommy and we are going to meet him there. isn't that exciting"

no car rides with you are never exciting

Noor is having two mentally ill kids in the same house 

at all

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